You know what?
Fuck it
I'm fucking done will all this goddamn bullshit
My fucking ratchet ass can't do shit right
And now I'm here on my floor crying about it.
I really don't deserve to be here
I should have been gone a long time ago
But apparently I can't fucking commit suicide because I fucking fail at everything I attempt to do
But that's what's expected from a fucking disappointment, right?
I'm so tired of always bothering people with my problems. I feel as if I can't be independent because the fucking thought in my head.
It's funny how a disembodied voice can cause such an impact.
But it's a constant reminder of how worthless and useless and weak and broken I am.
But that's okay
Because I'll bottle it up until I have no space left
Then finally, one day,
*poof*
I'm gone.
And I'll finally be okay
No more voices
No more anxiety
No more panic attacks
No more yelling
No more screaming
No more arguments
No more pain
Not for me, at least.
But, whatever, you guys are strong enough to move on. So, to that, I say
Fuck it!
I'll just go about daily life like nothing happens. Physically, I might be okay
Might
Mentally? I'm a fucking psychopath. Good for nothing.
But that's not important
It never was. It's not now. It never will be.
I'm finished ranting....
Just..... I need you guys to also keep 3ggen_ in mind. She's got shit going on and I really hope she's okay.
Send her your love and prayers, please
