Never Alone (Phan AU)

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Dan's POV

It's been about a week since mine and Phil's honeymoon and it's been absolutely amazing. We've been talking about adopting a child. There's been so much thought going into it, like where are they going to sleep and how we're going to take care of them. Our most important question is how are we going to tell our subscribers?

Yeah, for quiet a few years Phil and I have been YouTubers and we have a lot of subscribers. We haven't told them we're dating and we haven't exactly said anything on our sexuality either. Phil and I have been dropping some subtle hints and they know. 

"Dan?" I hear Phil call from the door.

"Yes?" 

"I think we should tell them." Phil says sitting next to me.

"I know," I trail off.

Phil lifts my chin making me look into his eyes. He leans in and presses his soft lips to mine. God, this brings me back to when we first kissed. I still feel the same sparks in my tummy as his lips move in time with mine. Phil gently pushes me down onto the couch and he stays on top, slightly laying on me while doing so. I bring my hands up to his head and run my fingers through his dark locks, earning a small moan. I smile as Phil pulls away, looking into the same blue eyes i fell in love with when I was just some silly high school boy.

"I love you," Phil says and pecks my nose, causing me to giggle.

"I love you." I grin.

Phil climbs off of me and we make our way over to Phil's room. This is the one we share, but for our separate videos, we film in out own room. My room will be the baby's when we adopt them. I see the tripod and lights set up in front of Phil's bed and we take a seat in front of the camera. Phil presses the button, making sure the microphone is on, and sits back down next to me.

"Hey guys! There's been a lot going on and I think it's time Dan and I tell you all the truth," Phil says and looks over at me, smiling.

***

As soon as we finish recording, I have a huge smile on my face. I give his a sweet kiss before laying down on the bed. I watch Phil grab his laptop and lay next to me in his own browsing position, getting ready to edit the video. I look up a him, a smile dancing on my face as I see how concentrated he is looking back over the footage and editing it. His tongue sticking out slightly and his eyebrows etched together. I love him so much. I can't imagine how my life would be if he wasn't part of it. I probably wouldn't be here anymore. I would have gone through with all those attempts. I'm still not 100% happy. Maybe a 77% because 76 is too low and 78 is too high. 

I still have my moments when I don't want to talk to anybody and I want to be left alone at all costs. Hate comments are a thing that happen quite often and it really never helped me. Every time I tried telling Phil that I was strong enough to look at them, he would always tell me not to and would delete as many as he could before I got to see. I'm glad he does that though because if he never did then I wouldn't be able to handle it. As I keep myself focused on Phil, i feel my eye lids getting heavier and my head lies on the soft pillow, my mind drifting to sleep.

"Come of Daddy!" I hear a small voice call as Phil and I pass a playground. 

I smile and look over at the tiny child running up to her father before he picked her up. A huge smile was on his face as his daughter giggled, her arms wrapping around his neck. I look over at Phil and nudge him to look at the two and he smiles.

"Are you trying to tell me something Dan?" Phil smirks.

"I want to have a baby," I say, smiling.