I Was Never Okay, I Promise.

I'm Okay. Trust Me. ( I Was Never Okay, I Promise part 6 )

last chapter of I Was Never Okay, I Promise. I'm debating on making a squel, but probably not. I hope you enjoyed the whole series.

- J

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** Gerards Point Of View **

I was in a field. It was shining bright outside, and the sun warmed my bones. I took a deep breath and looked around, trying to find Frank. He was here too, right? I hope he is.

I turned around and was face to face with a man that had a haircut like Mikeys. The odd thing was, this man did not have a face. The hair on the back of my neck rose, and I took a step back.

The man, thing, whatever it was, started screaming insults at me. I could not tell exactly what it was saying but I picked out a few words - ' Fucked up, pathetic, waste of space. '

I fell to my knees, and was suddenly sent spiraling down a black abyss. I could not grab onto anything, and the feeling of free falling made me sick to my stomach.

I jumped awake, a sweaty mess. Frank was awake too, starting to sit up. He looked at me with worried eyes. " Everything okay? Bad dream? "

I nodded and rubbed my sweaty palms on the hospital blanket and put my head in my hands. He stretched his arms. " You want to talk about it? " frank said to me reaching for my hand. I looked over at him. He looked absolutely tired, and I wonder if he even slept. I rubbed my eyes again.

" Sure.." I whispered, starting to explain it to him. Frank nodded and watched me explain. After I had finished, he climbed onto the hospital bed and wrapped his arms around me. " its a dream, Gee. You're not pathetic, or fucked up. " he ran a hand through my hair and I leaned my head against him. " Try to ignore the voices. " he whispered that time.

I nodded and took a deep breath, inhaling his somewhat smokey scent.

This time, when I fell asleep with Frank beside me, I didn't have any nightmares.

**** about 2 weeks later ****

It's been about a week since my uh, suicide attempt. I have been getting much, much better. Frank got me a therapist, and even though I truly believed that this person would not help me what so ever- I'm not gonna lie, it has. My physical injuries, they healing. Slowly, but surely.

Frank is happy to see me happy, and if he's happy then I'm happy. Yes, Im going to have my days, we both realize that. But I'm not suicidal any more. The therapist has helped me.

Frank doesn't let me leave the house alone anymore, for fear of me running into you again. Not like I complain, its more time to spend with him. Speaking of which, Frank has officially moved in with me.

Mikey and I talked about everything, and he's not mad or anything like that anymore. I talk to him more, and we're planning to go see a movie together this weekend.

Ray called me over in a panic the other day, because he was trying to bake cupcakes and he burned them. It was his third batch, and they were all burnt.

All of them.

So, I went over and made cupcakes with him. It was great. I got to hear how he was doing. He had gotten a girlfriend ( her name was Christa,) and apparently he can cook blueberry pancakes now. I'm not gonna say he's a liar, but knowing Ray, anything is possible.

I smiled at the memories, and sat down next to Frank on the couch. He wrapped an arm around my waist and kissed my cheek. " Hey baby. How ya feelin?" He asked me. " I'm feeling great, actually. really good. " I sighed happily and rested my head against him. " That's really great to hear, Gee. " frank ran his hand through my dark hair, which was knotless. " I need to thank you. " I told him. " You just did though?" He laughed lightly.

"No," I started getting up and standing in front of him. " I didn't. not properly, anyway. "

He crossed his arms and smiled up at me. I bent down and wrapped my arms around his neck, my face close to his.

" Frank Iero, I was mess before you stepped in. I.. " I stared into his beautiful brown eyes, losing my words. " I didn't know what to do. I was lost..

You changed everything. You fixed me up. You saved my life. The only hope I had was you. Im a complete ass for pulling out the gun. You shouldnt have to experience that.. you're way to good of a person...thank you. I love you. " I finished in a whisper. Frank, who had tears in his eyes, nodded. " I love you too Gerard. " he moved his head to me and kissed me. It was the best feeling in the world, when Frank kissed me. It was like.. something I couldn't describe.

I knew, from then on, everything was going to be okay.

**~ The End ~**