Its Friday and you get to sleep in because you have that class at 12.
You get up at about 9, you can't sleep anymore. You get up and get ready for this worthless appointment that you have no idea if its going to be good or bad. You get into the shower and after you get out you pick out the clothes you will wear and put them on. You go down stairs to your parents still sleeping. You go to the kitchen to try and find food. You haven't ate anything in a few days and you know you have to eat eventually. You dig through your fride and cabnets.. theres nothing. You sit on the couch and turn on the tv. Theres nothing on. Your phone? You don't really want anything to do with it besides the fact that your own boyfriend hasent texted you since the night of the accident. You text him
To Boo boo
You: Hey
him: hi..
you: you haven't texted me
him: i've been busy
you: to busy to visit your own girlfriend in the hospital when she almost commits suicide?
him: if you put it that way.
you: your fucked up. text me when you give a flying fuck
The texting between you to end. You lay on the couch. You call Mia and shes going to take you out to lunch. You don't care about your appoitment so you skip it. Your parents arent even up anyways. You leave with her. You guys are on your way to Olive Garden. Mia always knows that will cheer you up. You both get seated and order food.
"the fact that i almost lost my best friend kills me" says Mia "I'm really sorry you had to go through that mia, i love you" You can tell shes about to cry so you chang the subject. Before you can even think about changing it you. You see Blake walk in with another girl and you see them get seated far away for them not to see you but you have a perfect view. You call him and ask if he wants to hang out, He says no because hes helping his mom with somethings and he'd ask later. You feel the tears rushing in your eyes not knowing what to say or do. You just stair at them. You see how happy he looks, how everytime she talks, his bright smile that glows. You knew that shine in your guys realtionship was fading. That shine that gets there attention in the first place & the hardest thing of all, you cant do anything about it, it sucks to know you cant stop them from falling in love with someone else.
For the rest of the time you hardly talk to Mia. You just ether stair into space or look at them. You finally get up and try and make him notice you. He does, His bright smile fades. You look at him and smile pretending you haven't been watching them for the past few minutes. You walk back to your seat, his eyes never left you. You staired at him, you looked at him like he was just a stranger, and at that momnet he was. You knew he was still looking at you so you pretended you were happy and you had that bright smile on your face laughing while eating. He looked down, his date walk to the bathroom. He texted you. "i'll love you forever & always" he hears the ringtone of your phone all the way to his table. He watched you read it, look at you, looks back at the message, and never responds. He looks down at the table. You're own world is right across you, feet away. you're broken and theres no going back. He found someone better. Theres always someone better, and they always fall for someone better.
You and Mia get up and pay. You leave and head home.
You get home and tell Mia thanks for a great lunch date & how you really needed it. You tell her you'll text her later after she gets a nap in. You lay in bed not thinking about anyone what so ever. Only one thing, one person. It was Eliet. You call him and you both talk for hours. You tell him everything that happened today. you start to forget about everything you've been worring about for the past few days. You've guys been on the phone for atleast 3 hours. He has to go, you both hang up. You get a call seconds later. from blake. You guys talk about what happened. Tears filled your eyes even before you answered the phone. He told you everything he felt. He told you there was nothing in your guys relationshipand he new you were going through a hard time so he couldn't just.. break up with you. Because to him cheating would of been so much better. NO it hurt more then anything. You can't take his stupid explantions anymore. You don't care about how many times he says you aren't good enough. You hang up. Your parents haven't been home since you've got home. its 10 now, you know there okay probably went out to dinner. But, you got worried because they didn't text or call you all day. You try not to think about it and fall asleep.
