To a beTTer me

at school

Okay i got into the school building but today i began to feel self conscious which i thought was wierdand stupid, it became even worse when joshua passed where i was standing i constantly kept looking at him  and i just couldn't help it, cause for the first time i noticed that joshua prescot was actually handsome, when joshua passed i didn't want to believe myself so i kept telling myself that i was just excited because i was 13 and expectant on what was going to happen to me. "happy birthday", a timid voice said from behind me and it was daniel. Daniel is my friend in a way, we live close by but i have never liked his company so i find it easy to push him away which i do almost all the time "oh thanks" i said as i opened my hands to see the gift that he got me "um i-i hope yo-y-you like it" daniel said, but unfortunatelt for him i was no longer listening but praying for joshua to pass again
            This time when joshua passed he left me with butterflies flying around in my stomach "happy birthday girl" joshua said to me. Yeah he didnt know my name but more than half of the students that go to grey stack high school dont know either. After joshua left i just kept smiling until i went to class. Classes went on smoothly but i just kept smiling until a teacher even noticed but thought it was just my birthday vibes.
           After school i couldn't find lily anywhere so l decided to walk home on my own while i was about walking out of school i felt a grip on my shoulder like it was intended to pull me back or stop me "may i walk home with you" the voice said when i turned to see who it was, i saw daniel, i had no other choice so i decided to walk with him, while daniel and i were going i suddenly spotted joshua and so i tried to make him notice me while acting cool.
"Hey girl" joshua shouted still trying to act cool i turned towards him and smiled, it seemed that each
time i saw joshua the butterflies in my stomach become hungrier and hungrier and what i didn't understand was the reason why i felt that way, knowing i hadn't felt like that before (or could it be the magic of the teenage age) joshua walked up to me and decided to accompany me home, i didn't realize that daniel was still there because i was too busy admiring joshua.
"Surperise!!!", Wow when i opened the door to my living room i say all of my friends, and my dad, i was so happy to know that there were a lot of people who cared about me and since joshua was around i let him join the party.
Wow when the party was over people left and i was so excited when my dad gave me a gift, it was a dog i called her lola which was my moms maiden name.
I went to bed feeling like a star and that was it for my birthdat