To a beTTer me

out with joshua 😊😊

There i was, out on the street with joshua, it was not as bad as i expected it to be,he was fun and sweet and he also told a lot of funny jokes he took me to a restuant and we ordered chinese then i took him to my favorite place in the entire world there i could see the stars shining bright, i had forgotten about lily and how mad at her i was, joshua and i sat there for a while just talking and exchanging ideas, i could not find the right words to explain the feeling, it was happiness, excitement, i was just jittery on the inside but it was not for a particular reason that i knew if.
    Then it suddenly struck me when i ashed myself the question "could i be in love", i couldn't possibly be in love and besides i did not know anything about the feeling
I brushed my mind off the topic and decided not to think much about it.
I did not realize it was already so late and i was still out with joshua.
Joshua decided to walk me home, i suddenly felt a warm hand that wrapped my hand, it was joshua holding my hand (squeak), he waited to see me get inside, i never knew that the guy at school who was popular and never noticed me was actually the one who held my hand.
"Good night", i said closing the door behind me.
"Good night", joshua replied and then left.
I tip-toed into my room hoping dad would not find out that i was still awake, but i was too late....
"Where are you coming from", I heard  a voice say from behind me and it was my dad.
"Um I was out with joshua" I said with my head faced down. "Oh really that boy, I didn't expect this from you Jackie, you were with a boy this late at night and you were planning to sneak  in", dad kept scolding me and I didn't know when fresh hot liquid started to flow from my eyes, "I'm sorry dad", I said with my head still faced down.
"Please just go to your room", my dad finally said.
I ran upstairs and laid on my bed then I cried until I couldn't cry anymore.
Dad had never been this disappointed with me, I wanted to call lily but my ego didn't let me.
So I hugged lola real tight till I slept off

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