Without you

Church

Emily's P.O.V.
2 DAYS LATER
Today was Sunday. Luke, Courtney, and I got ready for church.
"Emily can you help me load the car with the band's supplies?" Dad called from downstairs.
"Yeah! I'll be right down in a minute!"
I finished brushing my hair and then I let my auburn hair flow down. I headed downstairs to help Luke.
Once we were done with loading the car, all of us got in the car and drove to church. We listened to Skillet's "Monster" and "Hero". We also listened to some other songs, I wasn't listening by that point.

"Emily..." Courtney sighed "Moriah and Joel are going to be at church."

"Ok" I sighed.

I had no idea why she wanted me to know that. We pulled into church. It was a long, one-story, white building. We walked in into the church.

"Hey Smallbones!" the man at the door greeted.

"Hello Mark." Luke said.

"Who's this?" Mark asked looking at me.

"This is Emily. She has been staying with us."Courtney said smiling.

I nodded in a greeting way.

"That's wonderful. Welcome Emily." He said.

"Thanks" I mumbled.

We got inside and I sat down while Luke and Courtney greeted people before the service.
The band started to play for the signal for everyone to sit down. I didn't know the song but I hummed along with it. The song soon ended and the pastor came up.

"That's Pastor  Jeff." Courtney whispered to me.

I was sitting in between Luke and her. Moriah and Joel were on the other side.
       We listened to the sermon that I zoned out of. We were talking about forgiveness and how Jesus and God forgive your sins.
I was skeptical about it all.
Luke and Joel went up.

"They are going to sing." Courtney whispered. "They are singing 'Proof of your love.'"

I nodded and listened. They weren't all that bad. I hummed along because Luke sang it quite often.
     They finished the song and Pastor invited the congregation to worship with them. I started to sing along the Moriah called me over.

"I have a question or two for you." She whispered. " 1.) Do you want to stay with Joel and I."

I nodded.

"2.) Come with me after the service."

I nodded again. I didn't know why I needed to come with her after the service but oh well.
By that point we were singing a song called "Jesus Friend of Sinners" I didn't know who it was by. The service ended and Moriah signaled me to follow her. I obeyed and followed her to the bathroom.

"Why are we here?" I asked softly. No one else was in the bathroom.

"Emily..."She sighed. "Why are you cutting yourself?"
I was so embarrassed that I started to break down.

"How--" I started to ask.

"Your sleeve lifted up a little bit and I saw what you did."

I wanted to crawl into a hole and die. My stomach had a pit in it.

"I am worthless...and pathetic...and I don't deserve to live." I half screamed.

"Emily...Emily" Moriah said calmly. "Who told you this?"

"The kids in school and my Biological dad."I mumbled.

Moriah shook her head. She handed me some tissues.
 
"It's not true. You matter more than you can imagine." She sighed. "Come on let's go find Joel and go." 
  
We found Joel and left to go to my house to pick up some clothes. The car ride was awkwardly silent the whole way there.
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Hey peeps!
Sorry for the slow updates...I joined theater and that is VERY time consuming. I am working updating more. But here is a pretty long chapter! Hope you enjoy it!!
-Emily :)