Goodbye

Letter six Dear William

(William is Carolyn's best friend)
Dear William,
                         I am so fucking sorry okay. I know how many times you've told me it's going to kill everyone if i go but i cant do it anymore. Life fucking sucks and, as much as i don't want to do this to you, i need to do this. Please please please please please do not try to join me. William you have so much to live for. From the first day i met you i knew that there was no way of getting you out of my life no matter how much i tried, trust me i have tried but i need you. I was 'your bitch' and that was it. The 'wedding' was one of the funniest things to happen and i just wish that i could go back to then and replay all the memories. I still cant believe that you were my first kiss. As much as i joke around saying i wish it wasn't you, i'm glad it was. Even though we have had a few moments where we were both pissed off at each other we still managed to get through it. When i first heard about you i had no idea that i would depend on you as much as i do today. I have so many amazing moments with you an i hope that you remember them and remember me. Look i really don't know what i want you to read in this. I don't even know why i'm writing this. You probably hate me so fucking much for doing this. I'm sorry.
Goodbye
Your friend Carolyn