Run

Chapter 13

"I'm sorry Lucy she has to go" Erik announces.
"WHAT NO!" Lucy protests.
"She's too dangerous! Look what she just did" he tries to reason with her.
"She was just protecting herself" Lucy argues.
"She didn't have to kill her" Erik says back. I get sick of them talking as though I'm not here.
"Yes I did" I say back darkly.
"What?" Erik says angrily with a small ounce of shock.
"I did have to kill her. Did you think she was just going to stop? And you certainly weren't helping!"
"That's not how we do things" Erik says back.
"Well it's how I do things" I reply.
"Exaclty why you shouldn't be here" he says coldly.
I stare back him with a cold hard expression.  There's no way I'm ever showing weakness to this guy.
"Fine" I say back I go stand where I was beforw the feral attacked.
Everyone looks a bit shocked but soon all get back in line for the water+ hole.
Luke stands in front of me but doesn't say a word. Lucy is in front of him and I can hear her sobbing quietly. 

I finally get to the water + hole and I see everyone else getting their things out for a sleepy. I drink as much water as I can and then fill my drink bottle up. I see around me some people have started sleeping already Lucy being one of them.  I start washing the blood off my face when I hear someone coming up behind me. I turn around quickly and see it's only Luke and I relax. I'm still angry at him though for not doing anything, and even more so for not speaking up for me when Erik kicked me out of the group. "I'm sorry for not doing anything" Luke says as though he just read my mine.
"You should be" I say back bluntly while cleaning my face.
"I know, it's just the way you just killed that feral, it's like you didn't even see her as human, you just killed her without even thinking about it."
"I did what I had to do to survive" I say back still not looking at him.
"We don't have to kill to survive" he says back as he goes to hold my hand which is on the edge of the water + hole.
I rip it away violently.
"No you don't have to kill to survive" I say standing up and staring him right in the face as he stands up with me. "I do. I've had to kill to survive for the last four years. Who are you to judge what I do? Hmm? You've been living in a group all this time while I've been alone, if I didn't look after myself no one else would, I had no one to fall back on, while you've had all your friends, supplies and haven't faced one spec of the the trouble I've faced. Everyone I've ever known is dead besides Lucy and now I may be separated from the only person I love who still alive forever.  You talk all this rubbish about 'doing things a different way'? Who are you to judge me, who are any of you to judge me? If I followed your advice I'd be dead."
Luke stares at me.
"I'm sorry...I didn't even think-"
"No you didn't think" I say coldly and go back to cleaning my face.