Depressed Love (SLOWLY UPDATING)

Chapter Two: Hi. I'm Alex Graybeck.

So i didn't realize that i forgot to tell you my story. Basically all about me.

My name is Alex Graybeck. I'm a high school sophomore and I'm 16 years old.

Cali girl for life woop woop.

Well you see, I have a pretty abnormal life.

I have suffered from depression ever since i was 13. I absolutely hate the color pink. I'm more into the darker colors like black, purple, and blue.

I guess you could say I'm a tomboy since I'm nowhere near a girly girl.

I should also say that I've never fallen in love before. I mean there's always a couple of guys I hang out with and stuff, but I've never actually fallen in love. And I'm not that kind of person who throws around 'I love you's'. Like if you want me to love you, you have to show it. Especially if you're just gonna leave me in the end.

My best friend is Jordan Summers. You could say were childhood best friends since we've been best buds ever since I when I was 7. The thing is, Jordan is normal, I am not.

I told you somethings about my mom earlier and how my housekeeper, Meredith, is usually the one looking out for me.

Hmm what else is there.. Oh yeah I'm also in love with photography. Sometimes I decide to take pictures of scenery but then sometimes i decide to take really graphic photos of things. It usually depends on what mood I'm in.

I guess you could say I'm an average teenage nobody. Jordan is my only friend since people always think of me as that weird emo chick. I don't know black just happens to be my favorite color and stuff.

And who are they to judge?

They don't know my story so why even bother.

I've had other best friends before. They all just happened to leave me.

And you know what sucks the most?

When you trust someone and you always thought they would be there for you. Then in the end they just start drifting away without even saying goodbye.

That happened to basically all my best friends.

Except Jordan cause shes bad ass.

Jordan is actually the reason I'm here right now. She's helped me a lot with my depression so I'd give her props.

Ugh and you know what I hate? My hair. Like sometimes I just don't know what to do with it. Basically I have it in a ponytail everyday. It would be rare to actually have it down.

But my life pretty much sucks. I don't ever get good grades, my mother is an alcoholic who doesn't give two shits about me, I still suffer from depression, and uh i think that's it..

Oh wait I forgot one thing. I'm also thinking of committing suicide and I've been self harming myself since I was 13.