Do It

Chapter 1- 'Obey'

It was currently 7:13am. Two minutes until my alarm goes off, indicating that its time for me to wake up and get ready for another day in hell or as some people call it, school. It would've been nice to actually be woken up by my alarm rather than me getting no sleep and awaiting for the annoying charm sounds to fill my ears. As i lay here, I'm thinking. More f*cking thinking. I've been thinking for the past 11 hours and 12 minutes but hey lets think some more shall we. The horrible thoughts that go through my mind are painful to listen to. Oh look 7:14am, one more minute until i can drowned all my sorrows in the bath tub until 8. One more minute until i get to obey to the voices in my head which constantly scream "DO IT!". Maybe i can get out of bed now and obey, i can't take their constant screaming anymore. My eye are wide open and I'm dying inside. My poor helpless body just needs to rest but my mind won't let it, my mind won't turn off. The more i think of my almost lifeless body, thoughts consume me once again, dragging me deeper and deeper into the depths of the darkest part of my mind. I don't like it here, but theres absolutely no escape for me.

 My thoughts surrounding my figure wondering when the alarm will go off. I look to the clock, 7:23am. WHY HASN'T THE ALARM GONE OFF?! Just then the annoying sound that i missed so dearly filled my ears as my little brother Jackson shook my body, trying to make me aware that my alarm has been going off for the past 8 minutes. I then apologised to Jackson and shooed him out of my room. I then proceeded to my bathroom and turned the shower on as there was no time to bath or obey to the voices which are now lurking angrily in my mind. I lock the bathroom door and begin to undress myself. I look in the mirror in front of me and stared at my scared body. My brunet hair falling down past my collarbones and almost reaching my belly button. As i stared in disgust at my hurt body, i turned around, grabbed a blade and walked into the shower to begin obeying the voices in my head saying "Do it." I first let the cool water send goosebumps down my sore back, decreasing the pain it felt then continued my shower as i would any other day. 

Once finished somewhat 'cleaning' myself, I stepped out of the shower and went back into my bedroom. I fished through my closet and found my leggings and pair them with a grey hoodie and a beanie. I got dressed and decided to add my converses to my outfit. Ready for the day, I grabbed my bag and looked at the time, 8:07am time for me to go. I got my phone off charge and ran down stairs. I greeted my mum and step dad, purposely forgetting my lunch then running out the door to my car. Jumping in the car and starting it, i drove off on my way to school.