Training to fall

And i did..

The walk was silent on my end. I didn't want to talk. He filled the silence. I can't really tell you what he was talking about. I was trying not to listen. If I listened, I would remember it later and I would think about it and I would fall in love with him. I couldn't fall in love with him.

"Hey so this is where you live?" He asked as I walked up to my gate. I quickly nodded bringing my hand up to the latch.

"This is my home" I said quite bluntly. I didn't mean to, it just sort of came out that way.

Luke glanced down looking straight into my eyes "I like it" he mummerd.

"You know.... i can't really invite you in if that's what you want" I said under my breath.

"It's fine. I should probably head home." He said being kind as he dismissed it as though it was nothing. "Hey Ella-Bella...." He said leaning closer to me.

"You know Calum, you shouldn't give girls attention when it only gives them false hope. You're not going to be with a girl like me. Sad but true. Could you stop giving me hope that it's possible?" I said crossing my arms. "We just won't work. We know that. No pretending and no delusions as much as I would like it to happen"

He stood back and stared at me as if I've just killed someone before uttering "What...?"

"Sorry. Might have been a bit presumptuous..." I mumbled sniffling in the fall air turning back to my house. "Thanks for walking me home, you didn't have to." I said with a small smile.

I was just going to return to my own life, separate from Calum. It was safe that way. It was better that way. Things belonged that way. I was taking the easy way out and I wasn't taking the risk and I was going to keep my heart from being broken even if it meant bruising it a bit...

But as I took a step towards the door I felt his hand closing around my wrist...

"Wait..." He said in a sincere enough voice that I turned back around. His eyes were earnest but I still thought maybe it wasn't real, maybe it was just a game to him.

"Calum..." I said trailing off.

"Why can't we happen?" He asked bluntly holding my wrist tighter.

"Why do you want us to happen?" I asked in part to keep from having to answer him.

"Why? Because I think about you all the time. You're all I want." He said and I felt my eyes fluttering with disbelief.

"Calum..." I said and he sighed.

"I can see it in your eyes... You want me, you just can't let yourself fall..." He murmured leaning closer to me. "Please tell me you want to kiss me so I can kiss you.." He whispered. I felt my body stiffen.

It was impulsive I know.
Every fiber of my being wanted to kiss him and forget about the risks.

So I did.

My hands landed on his cheeks pulling him toward me while his hands gripped my waist pulling my body to his. I parted my lips before crashing them against his.

Nothing else mattered except that I was kissing him.

Nothing else could ever be a more perfect moment in my life.

And he was kissing me back.

// dramaaaaa, I wanted this chapter out of the way! I have a plan of how it's going to work out so everything should be good! Hope you liked it :))) hmu on twitter @emittingmill //