Training to fall

"Can i come over?"

The next few days consisted of eating ice cream, crying into Addys shoulder and watching movies. Not to mention ignoring every single message I had received from Luke! Addy and I managed to find out who the girl was I mean there's pictures of them together in the background of everyone's face book pictures from that night including a few of me and him. Obviously I'm mad but I was considering whether I was over the top. Addy was a sweet heart and told me I was completely with in my rights to freak out like that but she also says I should message him back, maybe it's not what my drunk self saw. Even though the girl he was with in that bed agreed to every sexual act there is under the sun!

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The party was three days ago and it is the school holidays so I don't have to see him at all for at least a week. I've come to the conclusion that if I don't message him back, nothing will happen! Ughhh boys are confusing. My phones been receiving messages from Luke for the past ten minutes and I feel like I should reply.

4:56pm // Luke: Ella

4:58// luke: Ella please let me explain

4:58// luke: it wasn't what you think

4:58// luke: well maybe it was

4:59// luke : but that's not the point

4:59// Ella: what is the point then Luke because from what I can gather, you led me on all night then got with the closest girl next to you.

5:00// Luke: Ella you know that's not true

5:01// Ella: but I don't, it's in black and white. Besides I messaged the girl you done all that shit with and she told me everything. If you're going to deny it don't talk to me....

5:03// luke: there was no need for that, if you read my messages before hand I told you every single thing that happened! Please don't leave Ella I need you.

5:04// Ella: okay.

5:04// luke: please except my apology xx

5:10// luke: Ella...

5:11// Ella: what now??

5:12// luke: you're not going to except my apology are you...

5:15// Ella: why should I?? You'll just do this again!

5:15// luke: I won't I promise!! I was completely off my face, like I am most weekends. Im really sorry, if the alcohol is what's gonna cause arguments then I'll stop drinking so much.

5:20// Ella: you're only saying that because of what your doctors said about it, your drinking is out of hand luke so don't blame the fact you're a complete man slag on the alcohol.

5:21// luke: okay, true. I shouldn't of done it! I'm really sorry Ella-Bella! Xx

5:21// luke: let me come yours so we can sort this out, I hate arguing with you already and this is the first time. I know it's a bad time to meet your family and all but I hate this! Xx

5:22// Ella: I'm at Adelaide's right now but fine. Be at mine for 7. I live with my mum, and she's away right now with her friend so you won't meet her this time.... You'll have to sleep because I'm not staying in the house over night on my own!

5:24// luke: can we make it 7:30 if I'm sleeping? Need to pack a few things.

5:30// Ella: ok but no later

5:31// luke: okay Ella-Bella :)) xx

Addy was the one behind all those messages, I mean I typed them and had my input but She helped with most of it! Her dad dropped me home at 6:45, I dumped everything near the door as Soon as I got in legged it up stairs. I looked like an absolute state so I quickly jumped in the shower then got into an oversized top. My hair was a mess but I wouldn't have time to dry it as luke was arriving at 7:30 and it's now 7:25.

Spread out on my king sized bed managing to finish the last few pages of the Harry Potter book, I was thinking of what to say when he arrives, do. I shout at him? Do I ignore him? Do I just act like nothing's happened? But before I had chance to plan anything, I got a message.

7:37// luke: sorry im a few minutes late, I'm outside and didn't want to ring the door bell incase there was a slight chance your mum was in.