"mom please don't leave me" i said holding her hand with tears running down my face. she had just gotten out of surgery and was asleep. the doctors said they are unsure when she'll wake up or even if she will. i held my mothers hand tightly hoping she would move or her eyes would open. i started at heritage was completely silent. " mom please" i whimpered. " i can't do this without you, you still have so many things to teach me" i said. i looked at her nothing. " you need to see me get married, be the grandmother for my children please mom" i said. i wiped the tears running down my face. " i'm only 16" i said. my phone began ringing. i saw the time before i picked up 8 am i've been here for 5 hours. i checked to see who was calling me "hunter💓" part of me didn't want to pick up, another part of me wanted to do he could comfort me. " hello" i said trying not to sound like i was crying. " alyssa where are you" he shad worried. " i'm at the hospital" i said with no expression. " why what's happening are you okay? why didn't you wake me" he said sounding even more worried than before. " my- my -" i couldn't say the words i tried but i just couldn't. i felt the lump in my throat again. " my moms in the hospital" i said with my heart breaking in million pieces. " alyssa i-" i cut him off " im okay it's fine she'll be fine.... hopefully" i said with my voice cracking when i said hopefully. " i'm coming" hunter said. " no you don't need too" i said. " i know i don't but i want to" he said. " okay i'll see you soon" i said. i hung up and looked back over at my mom. i kissed her hand. " it's too soon" i whispered.
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i sat in silence thinking. no noise just me in my thoughts. my phone buzzed " be there in 10 mins baby" hunter said. i would usually smile but i didn't i couldnt. i looked over at my mom. she looked miserable. i sat up from the chair and walked over to her . more tears fell out and i didn't hold back. i hugged her and kissed her cheek. i didn't let go i didn't want too. " i love you mom, but this is your fight and if you need to go then go. but if you want to live for me then this is where you need to fight this is your time... if you're ready to go mom i understand. i love you thank you for giving me a great 16 years and teaching me everything i needed to know." i choked on my words. " i love you so much mom" i said crying more than i ever have before. " i'll be okay without yo-" i was cut off by a long beep noise. my heart dropped to my stomach. " no mom please done do this to me" i screamed with tears running. a doctor and a nurse came rushing in the room hunter followed and ran right to me. i didn't want to be held. i was screaming like a baby with tears rushing down my face. the doctors grabbed a defibrillator and said some weird numbers that i didn't understand. they hit them to my mothers chest. nothing. again. nothing. once more. nothing. " time of death 9:17 am" one of the doctors said. " we are very sorry for your loss we will give you a minute then came back in to take care of her" the doctor said coming over to me. " no you aren't" i said softly with anger in my voice. i rushed over to look at my dead mother. " it wasn't supposed to happen this way, she was supposed to be here for me" i said while chocking on my tears. " i'm sorry alyssa, im here for you" he said hugging me from behind. " she was all i had left" i said softly. " you have me" hunter said. " if i weren't with you none of this would have happened" i said leaving the room. " alyssa come back" hunter said with a tear running down his face. " i can't stay here" i said. i ran out of the hospital to my car. i turned it on and turned the radio to full max. and drove out of he hospital parking lot. " i don't wanna be here here" i screamed. tears were falling so hard i couldn't even see. i started speeding and singing to the song " I'm on the pursuit of happiness and I know
Everything that's shine ain't always gonna be gold
I'll be fine once I get it, get it in, I'll be good" i started speeding to full max now. until i heard a loud noise and boom everything went black.
