The Boy Who Couldn't Hold His Breath Underwater ✔

You Thought I'd Want to Smoke with You

We were almost done eating when Emma walked to our table. I glanced at my friends confusedly but they just shrugged and ignored Emma, leaving me to handle her on my own. I hated my friends.

"Hi, Isak", she said.

"Hi", I replied. "What's up?"

"We...um, have kind of a party in our cabin six."

I raised an eyebrow. "A...party?"

She shrugged. "You know, no alcohol, obviously, but just music, playing cards, eating and stuff."

"Oh."

She wiggled her fingers and looked at me shyly. I wanted to sigh.

"I was wondering if you and your friends would like to come?"

"We... uh, we--"

"We will come", Magnus interrupted. "Of course we will come, don't mind Isak, he's a little bit slow sometimes."

I glared at Magnus and sighed. "Yeah. We'll come."

Her whole face lit up and she smiled widely. "Oh, that's great. You can come any time after dinner."

"Yeah, okay", I said. She smiled at me and then walked away. I sunk down on my seat. Magnus slapped my head. "Ouch, what was that for?"

"For being an idiot", Magnus said. "She clearly likes you so what's the problem here?"

"I'm not interested", I muttered.

Magnus rolled his eyes and I rubbed my face in frustration. I knew I should probably tell my friends about... my situation but I didn't know how. What if they would take it badly? What if they wouldn't understand? Also how to bring up something I couldn't even explain to myself? The way I saw it, there was no way I could tell my friends about my situation.

We finished eating and left the dining room. We went to our cabin and changed our clothes. Magnus insisted we would go there already. I tried to say to him that we should wait but he didn't want to so we got out of the cabin and started walking towards the cabin number six. We heard the music far away and saw people standing outside, jamming and laughing with each other. We walked past them into the cabin and saw Emma, Sana, Noora and that one girl from their cabin, Nora. There was also Vilde and Sonja and Even.

I bit my lip and looked at Even. Our gazes met and I turned my gaze away. Vilde, Sana and Nora were playing cards while Emma sat on the side, talking with them. When she saw us she got up and came to greet us.

"I'm so happy you guys came!" she said.

I forced a smile on my lips. Jonas and Mahdi went outside to talk with the guys and Magnus sat down on the floor, joining the card game. Emma pulled me to the bed and we sat down. She was sitting close to me. I glanced at Even. He was talking with Sonja, leaning against one of the cabinets. Sonja was explaining something, swinging her arms in the air and laughing occasionally.

I turned my eyes away and tried to ignore them, even though I could see them from the corner of my eye all the time. It bothered me.

Why did it bother me so much? Did I really like Even so much that I got jealous when he was with his girlfriend? It seemed like I did. Damn it. Why this had to happen to me? I just wanted a nice, relaxing summer camp for God's sake.

"Isak?" Emma said and I snapped out of my thoughts, looking at her.

"Sorry, what?"

"I asked do you want Coca Cola?"

I shrugged. "Yeah, sure."

She handed me the bottle and I opened it, taking a sip. God, I had almost forgot how good Coca Cola was.