The Boy Who Couldn't Hold His Breath Underwater ✔

You're Not Special

"Wait, what? Why would she tell everyone?" Jonas asked.

I spread my arms.

"I don't know!" I yelled. "Maybe she wants revenge."

"Or maybe she's mature enough to know that she can't just go around outing people to everyone", Jonas said.

I bit my lip. He had a point. Maybe, just maybe, Sonja was more mature than what I assumed. Maybe she wouldn't tell anyone. I took a deep breath and then breathed out slowly. I had to calm down a little.

"How'd she find out?" Magnus asked.

I proceed to tell them what I saw in the art room. Even and Sonja kissing. Although Even had said that Sonja kissed him, I had no idea what to believe and who had kissed who. I felt so lost. And hurt. Jonas could immediately see it.

"Isak?"

I sighed. "Even ran after me. He stopped me and said that he didn't kiss Sonja, she had kissed him. And he said that he would never do that to me."

"And?"

"And then Sonja appeared, she had heard everything and figured out the truth."

My friends were quiet for a moment but I couldn't be silent, not when I had still things to say, things that I couldn't keep inside of me anymore.

"I just don't know what to believe!" I groaned.

"Well", said Jonas, "did it look like he was kissing her?"

I thought about it. And thought about it. And... no. No, it didn't. Even had had his arms on his side, not wrapped around Sonja. He had had a surprised and shocked look on his face before I had dropped the box and made them aware of me being there. The more I thought about it the more it seemed like Even had told the truth; Sonja had kissed him out of the blue and he had been caught off guard.

"No", I finally sighed out loud. "It did not look like he was kissing her."

"And there you have it", Jonas said. "You overthink every time something happens, you know that, right?"

"Jonas has a point", said Mahdi.

"You should listen to him sometimes", said Eskild.

Magnus nodded in agreement and I rolled my eyes, finally moving from standing in the middle of the cabin to sit on my own bed. I sunk down on the bed and fell on my back.

"I have to overthink it. It's who I am."

"Can't you just... I don't know... trust Even?" Magnus asked.

I narrowed my eyes. "Trust? I can't trust him."

"Why not?"

I thought about everything that had happened. How he had been willing to cheat on his girlfriend because of me. How he had kissed me but then told me that he needs space. Then he went and talked and kissed with Sonja. Or Sonja kissed him but whatever. And let's not forget that thing that Sonja had said, about Even doing this to her again.

Yep, so there was that.

"Because he hasn't give me any reason to trust him", I muttered, rolling on my stomach and pressing my face against the mattress.

Jonas kicked my leg.

"Either way", he said. "You have to talk with him. Give him a chance to clear everything up. Things have gotten way too messy, too many loose ends. It's time to get some clarity to your situation."

"He wanted space. I'd talk to him if he would let me."

Jonas shrugged. "I think he is willing to talk with you now when Sonja found out, it makes the situation brand new."