THE BEGINNING OF DEATH - NITRO CIRCUS FAN FICTION

Chapter 19

"Will you marry me?"

I starred wide eyed, my mouth hanging open as two figure stood in the middle of the arena. Those two figures being my dad and Lynn-z Adams Hawkins. My dad was currently knelt down in front of her, hands out with a small black box sitting in them. Lynn-z stood in front of him with her hands covering over her mouth. There was colorful lights shining all around the stadium and fire crackers occasionally going off. All members of the nitro crew stood by my side cheering and screaming along with everybody else in the stadium.

And then there was me.

I stood there, my mouth hanging wide open and my tear filled eyes as wide as they can go. I stood there shaking like a chihuahua surrounded by great Danes. My emotions were all over the place and my brain wasn't functioning. I could be stopping this but instead I just stood there. I stood there and watched as my dad proposed to my soon to be step mother.

Just when I thought it couldn't get any worse, it did.

"YES" Lynn-z screamed into the microphone my dad was holding. She leaned down and grabbed both sides of my dads face, before I can evan react or pull her off of him by her hair she attacks his lips with hers. My dad wraps his arms around her and begins kissing her back. My heart feels like a fright trains running over it again and again and again. Tears sting my eyes and a vicious wave of nausea passes over me, making me want to throw up. All I can do is watch, watch as my heart is ripped out of my chest and stomped on multiple times.

I push past all the people cheering, screaming, and having fun. Nobody seems to notice or stop me as I run and I'm grateful. Once I'm clear I head down a long hallway trying to find some peace and quiet. As if having my wish fulfilled I stumble into the changing room allowing myself to breath. Once all alone I slump against the cold brick wall of the change room and bring my knees up to my chest.

How could he? Without even mentioning or asking me for my opinion. I feel so betrayed, ignored, let down, and Angry. Angry that I didn't get a say in any of this! It's like I couldn't control my emotions as I began to feel extremely pissed off and depressed. I feel like listening to sad music and crying until there is no more tears, hitting someone with a hammer until they lose there memory, and throwing a fucking chair at my stupid dad!

My breathing quickened as I let out a whimper. "How can you be so stupid! Stupid, stupid, stupid!" I hissed, hitting myself in the face with my own hand.

I let my hand fall to my side as I let out another cry. "How could he?" I let the tears fall freely down my face.

fuck everything!

I placed my hands on the ground and forced myself to stand up. Still crying, I managed to make my way over to my bags. I sat on the wooden bench that was connected to the wall and bent down to unbuckle my boots. Once my boots were off I ripped all of the other gear off and stripped out of my motocross gear, leaving me in my black sport bra and ethika boxers. I reached into my back pack and pulled out a pair of black sweatpants and a black Foxhead hoodie. I grabbed a pair of socks out of my bag and shoved everything back into my duffle bag. Once I had socks on my feet, I stood up and walked into the connected bathroom. I still had many tears streaming down my face. My reflection just made me cry even more. There was mascara stained all over my red puffy cheeks, my eyes were no longer white but red, and my nose was the color of a cherry.

"why does it have to be her?" I ask myself as I starred at my reflection in the mirror. "why?"

I stand in there crying for another ten minutes until I finally decided to go back out and get my stuff. I walk out of the bathroom and walk over to my bags that were placed in the corner of the room. I threw my back pack onto my right should and slipped my other arm through the other side. I grabbed the handle to my duffle bag and threw it onto my left shoulder. I slipped my feet into a pair of uggs and walk out of the change room. I make a left turn making my way towards the closest exit, the one right infront of me.