Remember Me | JiKook

Letting Go: ~1~

Jungkook's POV

It's been more than a week since Soo Jung has been gone. I miss her, alright? But there's something else on my mind nowadays. I grew curious of a certain someone, Jimin. He was always mysterious to me. From what Dad has told me, he has a messed up past but he has no idea about it. I met him the day I lost Soo Jung and it's ironic how he's the reason behind everything. Even after everything he put me through, I couldn't bring myself to hate him. I could tell that he's already going through a lot. But he never opens up to me. All these feelings at once leave me puzzled.

That day, I decided to pay her a visit. I needed to talk it out with her. I asked my father to arrange for a legal visit a few days earlier. He had mailed me the paperwork and I was ready, almost. I still had to make up my mind. What should I tell her? Should I confront her? I was confused and nervous to the point where I didn't want to go anymore. But I had to. It would be our last conversation with each other. I won't ever meet her again.

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-"Hey kid! Are you Jeon Jungkook?"
-"Yes"
-"Prisoner number 1024 is waiting for you in stall 18"
-"Okay" I dragged my feet to a hall which had two rooms. The hall had several stalls and the the two rooms were separated by a glass wall. I could see her in stall 18 and quickly went towards it. I sat down and we stared at each other for a few minutes. I decided to break the silence since I didn't have much time.
-"Soo Jung" I called her over the phone and that was all it took to turn her into a crying mess. She was still beautiful though. "These tears don't suit you" I stared at her fondly, reminiscing all our moments.

-"J-Jungkook, I'm s-sorry. I don't expect you to forgive me b-but....."
-"It's okay Soo Jung. I've already forgiven you a long time ago"
-"I should've told you about Sam. I-I was wrong and look what happened." She said looking up.
-"Look, I cannot change what happened but I sure can forgive you. Besides, I've known about you and Sam for a while now."
Her eyes widened and she burst out in more tears. This time the guilt was clearly visible in her eyes.
-"Jungkook, I don't deserve you"
-"I don't know about that, Soo. But I wanted to thank you for something..."
She threw me a questioned look. "I wanted to thank you for teaching me how to let go. Some things aren't meant to be held back and we should stop trying. Maybe they didn't belong to us in the first place." Her tears finally stopped and she smiled faintly.
-"Jungkook, you better find someone who loves you like no one could love anything or I'll break out just to teach you a lesson!" She laughed a sad laughter.
-"I will"

"God, that was better than I expected" I told myself as I walked out. I felt a weight off my chest. I finally let go of her. Hell, I loved her. I loved her a lot but I was happy. She'll be a better person when she gets out of here. The way back felt much shorter.

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Jimin's POV

That was the day that changed my life again. I went to the address that was mailed to me.

I mean, why wouldn't he? I paid him to. But if he was someone who cared about me, he wouldn't be helping me out with this.

The building was tall and the roads were all too familiar. It wasn't inside an alley or anything, it stood right beside the main street. So, this is it? I wasted no time getting on the elevator. Of all the buttons I pressed the topmost one. With every floor, my heartbeat increased. Am I ready? It was too late anyway. The elevator stopped at my destination and the doors opened with an annoying 'ding' sound.

I stepped out after having second thoughts. Everything came flowing back to me all over again. The same adrenaline rush, my lungs were once again running out of air, my eyes were teary all over again and my heart ached the same way. But there was no one standing on the edge anymore. I was alone and it felt worse. I didn't remember anything except that one memory. As if that memory was carved at the back of my mind to torture me. I thought for a moment that I would be able to save her but it was too late already. Why did I think that?

Holding that thought, I started walking towards the edge. That was when I saw a red haired boy smiling at me. He was standing on the edge, facing me. He extended his hand and every part of me wanted to take it. I didn't know what I was doing but I couldn't refuse him. My body and my mind were not in sync. I watched that boy fall while smiling at me. He didn't even look behind him. Before I could process what was happening, I found myself standing on the edge too. I looked down and the sight made me dizzy and in a moment, I got back to my senses. Just then, a familiar voice called me "Jimin! Don't!" I turned around and fell out of balance. Everything went black after that.

I woke up by the sound of Namjoon's faint whisper. I realized that I fell on the safe side of the roof and, thankfully, Yoongi had caught me. Namjoon was the one who stopped me before I did something stupid. All three of us were still on the roof, both of them staring at me, me lying on the ground.

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It was silent in the elevator. None of us talked after I woke up. They just dragged me with them. I found it best for me to not fight back. I dared to be the one to speak first "I'm sorry" I kept my head low and voice under a whisper.
-"You're sorry!? Do you have any ideas what you were about to do!?" Yoongi snapped.
-"I think it's best for you to stay quiet. Your mom will be devastated if she hears about this" Namjoon said in a calm voice which scared the living shit out of me.
-"P-please don't tell Mom. I didn't mean to do it. It was out of m-my control" I was horrified.
-"What do you mean? You came here all the way on your own will!" Namjoon questioned.
-"I-I did but.... something happened to me. I needed to come here, I thought I'd remember everything. As if my feet were moving by themselves. I couldn't stop myself from walking" I broke into tears.
-"Jimin, just call us whenever you feel like that, okay?" Yoongi wasn't mad anymore. He put my head on his shoulder and patted my back. It felt nice, I was safe. But those memories still haunted me. I couldn't get the vision of him falling out of my head. Who was he? Why did he fall just like that? What are my visions trying to tell me?
-"Okay, I won't tell your mom." Namjoon glared at me "But on one condition"
-"What?" I wasn't surprised.
-"You have to see Jin."
-"Who is he?"
-"He's my friend and a therapist"
-"What? I don't need counselling!"
-"Shut up! You don't have the right to complain! Besides, it's Cognitive Behavioural Therapy aka CBT. It's different than counseling"
-"Great, I love you guys" I said sarcastically.
-"Hmm. Us too" Yoongi grumbled mocking me.
-"By the way, how did you know I was here?" I had that question for a while.
-"Hoseok told us."
-"What? How do you know him?"
-"Everybody knows him. And I was there with him when you guys talked on the phone."
-"Well, I would have killed him for not maintaining the confidentiality of his client but that sorta saved my life so I'll forgive him."
-"Confidentiality of his client? How professional do you think he is? He raps with us, Jimin" Yoongi started laughing making me look like an idiot.
-"Don't make me feel worse." I puffed my cheeks.
I was glad that I made it through another almost suicide attempt. What is wrong with me? Why do I keep hurting them? I just wished that Jin would understand me. My friends already thought that I was crazy, I didn't need it to be official.

Edited : 10.30.17