My Heart Over My Head

CHAPTER FOUR

We wake up the next morning Dylan is holding me just as tightly as he was when I fell asleep. I felt so safe in these big tattooed arms of his, he tries to tell me how bad he is but I just don't care maybe that will change soon but not at the moment - at the moment all I care about is this. I feel sick when i realize it's Tuesday it means tomorrow we'll have to start heading back back to reality which is something I would rather avoid right now. I try and block that fact from my mind it's not something I really want to think about right now. I lay there trapped in Dylan's arms I don't want to wake him so I don't bother trying to escape them. I run my hand over his tattooed back under each one I can feel the uneven skin underneath I'm sure it's scars - under every single one. His eyes flicker open.
"Morning beautiful" he smiles
"What happened?" I ask, running my hands over another one of his scars.
"I told you my life is pretty fucked up." He sighs "I've been shot and stabbed but each time it's healed I get them covered up - if I didn't I'd scare off all the pretty girls" he smirks at me.
"You wouldn't have scared me off" I smile leaning forward and kissing him. "What's the plan today?"
"We might go back and see if mum is home?" He replies
"Sounds good." I smile
"But first...." He smirks and pulls me on top of him.

I go into the shower and let the hot water run down my body next minute I hear the door open.
"Do you want some company?"
"I don't mind." I smile
Within seconds Dylan is in there with me. After a while we finish up and get out I dry off my hair and chuck on some clothes I move over to the mirror staring at myself in the girly summer cut out dress with my long brown hair running down my shoulders. If Dylan and I stay together after this can I still wear this type of thing or will have to change? I don't mind wearing singlets, hoodies and jeans like I had seen a lot of girlfriends of gang guys wear in TV shows, but I don't want to change myself because at the end of the day this is me. Maybe I wasn't suited to this life but I would do anything to be with Dylan.
"You're beautiful" he smiles wrapping his arms around my waist and putting his head on my shoulder.
"Thanks" I smile
"Please don't hate me for anything I told you last night."
"I don't" I reply "I love that you where so honest with me."

We go and get something to eat and then we get into the car and head to Dylan's mums house. We get out and he goes and knocks on the door. Minutes later we hear footsteps and the door open.
"Dylan?" A female says surprised but happy "what are you doing here?"
"I thought I'd come and see my mum" he smiles
"And who is this?" She asks smiling
"This is Sienna."
No label just Sienna I liked that I guess I was his girlfriend but I guess we'd figure all of that out when we returned home at the moment it really wasn't important.
"Nice to meet you Sienna" she smiles "come in"
We sit and talk - Laura is lovely I look around and find it so hard to believe that someone involved in things like Dylan is was bought up in this house. I guess it's all the stereotypes again that I was used too.
"So what are you up too these days?" Laura asks Dylan
"Same old" he replies
"I was hoping that wouldn't be the case..." She sighs "specially with this gorgeous girl next to you."
"Mum seriously I haven't seen you for ages I don't need to hear it"
"Okay okay I'll stop."
"So what are you doing in town?"
"We decided to take off for a few days - get away from the drama for awhile."
"How's kale?"
"Yeah okay being a bit of a bitch" Dylan smirks
"Dylan leave your brother alone" she laughs "I haven't seen him for a long time he rings every so often but I couldn't tell you when I saw him last."
We stay at Laura's for ages Dylan is glad we are spending time with his mum it's so obvious. But he still doesn't really let on about how happy it's making him.. The only time I've seen him do that is when it's just me and him and we are talking about us.

The rest of our road trip goes way to quick but I have learnt a lot about Dylan in these last few days. Heading back is so annoying I was like a child not wanting to go to their first day of school - I would have given anything for this not to end but that just isn't possible.

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"When are you working next?" My work mate Kyla asks
"Tuesday" I reply
It was Thursday and I was just finishing up my shift - Dylan drove me to work this morning because I didn't want to go home last night after we got home from our amazing few days away.
"Do you reckon you could close tonight?" She asks "I've got an appointment and need to head out a little bit early?"
"Yeah I don't mind." I smile
I didn't mind closing up the shop by myself it was pretty easy at 4:30pm Kyla leaves and I start to close up. Once I was finished I grab my bag and leave to walk home. I walk through the park and realize it is starting to get dark I feel a little nervous which was unusual but I got over it and continued to walk.
"Hey sexy girl." I hear a voice say to me I turn around and see someone I've never seen before. I turn back and continue to walk faster. "Don't runaway" I hear his footsteps getting closer I try to speed up but I feel his hand grabbing me and stopping me.
"Get off me" I say
"Yeah, I don't think that's going to happen." He grabs me and pushes me down. My head hits something and I black out.
"Si" I hear a familiar voice say
I come to and Dylan is holding me close.
"Where am I?" I say and then everything that happened came flooding back "where is he?" I say jolting up "what happened to me?"
"I was walking to your work because you hadn't gotten home yet and he was trying to..." He stopped
"Rape me?" I reply
"Yes but he didn't I stopped him"
"Where is he?"
"I'm not sure but his not going to hurt you again that is for sure."
"What do you mean?"
"One of the boys came and got him after I beat the shit out of him."
He holds me tight.

Dylan carries me home I felt nothing but unwell and my head hurt badly he picks his phone up finds a number and calls it.
"Yeah Ryan I need your help."
Within a few minutes this Ryan was in my house, he is apparently a doctor that works for the gang - he makes sure medical attention is given but the police aren't informed.
"So what happened?" He asked
Umm.." I reply
"She got pushed to the ground and hit her head pretty bad" Dylan answers for me. Ryan patches me up and gives us some painkillers and leaves.
"Now your going to bed!" Dylan tells me.
"I need a shower" I reply
"if your not feeling too dizzy."
"I do a little" I frown
"I'll have one with you." He replies
After our shower Dylan helps me get dressed and carries me into bed.
"Where's Ella?" I ask
"She left before I went to find you she had to go do a couple of things."
"Oh.. Okay" I smile
We lay in bed and Dylan gives me some pain killers, after a few minutes I feel them start to work and I slowly start to doze off to sleep. A while later Dylan wakes me.
"You need something to drink and eat." He smiles and hands me my food to be honest I knew I was hungry but after everything that happened I didn't feel like eating.

Dylan stays with me for ages he doesn't leave my side.
"I thought I was going to loose you today." He says
"You'll never loose me." I reply
"I really hope not."
I cannot believe what happened tonight I've walked through that park a million times by myself and nothing has ever happened before. Why now? And, why me?
"I'm not letting out of my sight." He says one thing I'd learnt about Dylan was he is protective. So so protective.
"I'll be fine, you said that guy can't hurt me again."
"He can't but he is part of a rival gang." He sighs "they'll find out sooner or later that his not around and that's not going to be too good when they realize why."
I met Dylan less than a week ago and two people had already been killed maybe he was right maybe this life was fucked up and I shouldn't be around it but then again if I wasn't I wouldn't have been too safe tonight.
"Okay" I sigh
"It just means we have to be extra cautious now." He replies "You can't walk around on your own anymore I need to know you are safe"
"Great" I think to myself "goodbye freedom!"

Dylan gets up to go and get a drink. I flick on the TV and flick through the shows. My usual favourite didn't stick out to me anymore. I pass by mob wives yep no and then I pass by underbelly certainly fucking not. I spot keeping up with the Kardashians and put that on at least I knew this wouldn't have anything gangsta related in it. Maybe i was questioning all of this, I guess when he told me the truth about his life part of me thought it sounded so far fetched I didn't believe him - even after seeing the scars on his body. I guess I didn't want to believe him. I stared at the TV blankly and nothing was going in I couldn't make sense of any of it, I guess I just had way to much on my mind.
"Oh my god!" I hear Ella shriek "are you okay? Dylan just told me what happened! I told you that walking through that fucking park wasn't a good idea!!"
"Yeah" I reply "I know. But It was the quickest way home and I've never felt unsafe there until tonight."
"Do you need anything?"
"No, Dylan's got me covered" I smile
"Well you tell me if you do!"
"Where is Dylan anyway?"
"Outside having a smoke." She replies
"Okay" I smile
I get up and go outside to find Dylan who is staring into the city.
"Why aren't you in bed?" He frowns
"Because I was bored" I reply
"Ryan said you have to take it easy!"
"I walked from my room out here I don't think that's a crazy amount of exercise."
"Maybe not but I don't need you sicker than you already are."
"Shut up." I smile at him playfully punching him in the arm.
"I'm serious Si!!" He says in a cranky tone
"So am I!" I reply