You're my One and Only

Chapter IV

                                                                                 Chapter IV

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“Noel, why are you wearing your brother shirt?” I ask Noel who is wearing green t-shirt that belong to Neil.

Noel and Neil think they would easily trick me, thinking I would not know who is who. But they were my son of course I could differentiate them even thou they are identical twins. We’ve finally finish move out from my parents’ house and the boys has been very happy. They’ve been making sound like disapproval sound, irritate sound, annoyed and anger. Thou they haven’t said a word. When other people come, the boys are very quiet that you barely hear them make any sound. They’ve been showing me some tantrums but I’ve been told by the specialist not to go on with their wants especially when they start shouting for it. So far, they haven’t shouted at me, just showing me bad attitude such as ignoring me and all.

I kneel down and took off Noel’s shirt and helped him put on his blue t-shirt as Neil put on his t-shirt on his own. We’re having dinner party tonight, few people are coming over including Niall’s family. “Now, there will be a lot of people down there. Be a good boy and behave. Okay?” I pulled both of my boys in my arm. They nod and kissed my cheek.

I took a deep breath and went downstairs with them. The first person that caught my eyes was Niall, he was talking with my father, laughing and taking a sip at his wine. Barbara caught me and I looked away, went around the house and socializing with everyone. Greg was here with his wife and Theo. Noel and Neil was playing in the living room, next to the Christmas tree, near the fireplace to keep themselves warm. It’s in the middle of December now and it’s beginning to snow and getting cold.

“Hey.” A familiar voice appear.

I turn around and saw Niall, smiling to me. His light blue eyes caught my attention, reminding me the 1st reason why I fall hopelessly in love with him. 2nd was his sweet smile.

“Hey” I said with a smile, taking a sip of my wine. “Thank you for coming.” I said.

“Thanks for inviting.” He said back.

There was a long pause between us as we pretend to look around the surrounding. I turn my attention to the boys who is paying with Theo, supervised by Denise, Greg, my mom and Maura. Noel and Neil are good with Theo, making him laugh, gently playing with him. “So, how have you been?” Niall finally speak up.

I just nod and said “I’m good.”

“Really? You know you can tell me Neave.” he said turning his head to me.

“I know Niall, but really. I’m good.” I said taking the last sip of my wine.

“So how old is your boys?” he ask.

I didn’t want to answer him and went on ask about him “How have you been? Being all famous and all.”

“Neave… Please, you’re hiding something from me. Are you mad at me?” he stands in front of me.

“Niall, it’s been 3 years. I’m not mad at you.” I said with a fake smile.

Niall look at me, frustrated and let out a heavy sigh. I look at him, he was so close to me. Just like before except this time, his arm was big, his chest was hard, and he’s not mine. I missed hearing his heart beat as I lay my head under his neck, on his chest. I miss him running his finger through my hair, my back and my hand. I miss his warm, wet lips lock to mine.

“Niall!” A girl voice snapping me out from my cloud. It was Barbara, she stopped running when she saw me and Niall together. She smiles to me and went to Niall. “Greg and Denise are leaving, Theo need his sleep.” She said.

“They are leaving already?” I ask. Barbara nod and I asked to be excuse, walk towards Greg and Denise. Wishing them good night and thanking them for coming.

“I know you don’t want to hear this but Niall is sensing something. You won’t be able to keep it away from him forever. One way or another, he’ll figure it out. It’s either he’s going to hear it from you or from others. Stop lying to him, to your boys and most importantly, lying to yourself.” Greg whisper and left.

Leaving me feeling selfish, hurt and scared.

“Neave we need to talk.” Niall pulled my hand and pulled me to upstairs. He asked where’s my bedroom was, I pointed out at him the master bedroom and he pulled me there.

When we’re in the room, he closed the door, locked it and turn to me. His eyes tells me that there’s no way I could escape this. He’ll get the answer he needed tonight. Tears about to stream down my eyes, I turn away from him and walked towards the bathroom, shut the door and locked it. I started to sob for no reason, I was scared and hurt.

“Neave… Please come out.” Niall begged.

I didn’t. I stayed in the bathroom, crying and thinking on what I should do. Niall didn’t leave, he didn’t need to speak up. I could feel his presence near me, he was standing still, leaning his back on the door, waiting for me to come out.

“Niall, I’m coming out.” I warn him before unlocking the door. I heard him move away and unlock the door. He was standing still, looking at me. My eyes was wet and puffy, he noticed it but he didn’t say a word. He just walk towards me and wrap me in his arm. I broke down and start to sob in his arm. He cooed me, he rub the back of head, hugged me tighter. Not a word, we stayed like that for few minutes. When I finally calmed down, Niall pulled away and cupped my face. “I’m sorry.”