You're my One and Only

Chapter V

                                                                                         Chapter V

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‘I’m sorry!? Why are you sorry? What are you sorry about? You didn’t do anything… I lied to you! I lied to Noel and Neil. I cause everyone to lie to you including your own family.’

I wanted to scream that to him but I couldn’t find my voice. I tried to open my mouth but I couldn’t. Our eyes met each other, we didn’t say a word. But he finally break the silent. “I came back, but you weren’t here. I thought you would be waiting for me but you didn’t. My mom said you didn’t wait for me. Tell me you did. You did wait for me and you had to leave.”

He held my hand tight, I smile and nod. I wasn’t lying. I wanted to wait for him but I couldn’t. I wanted to tell him but the thought of ruining his career with this, I couldn’t. I had to leave. I was protecting the both of us. His future and my heart.

“I miss you… So much.” He said pulling me in his arm again. It feel so warm to be in his arm again, I hugged him tighter and so did he. “I miss you too.” I finally speak up.

“Niall and Neave vs the world right?” he said pulling away from the hug. I nod and smile to him. “That’s the smile I’ve been waiting.” He said and lean down to kiss me. We’re few inches apart, I wanted to kiss him back but I remembered Barbara. I couldn’t kiss Niall. I pulled away from him and turn away. “What’s wrong?” he asked, walking to me.

I flinch and moved away from me. “Barbara.” I said with bitter. “You should leave Niall.” I said hurtfully.

“Do you want me to leave?” He whisper in my ear, his arm around me. I nod. He stopped and kissed my cheek. “I wish you could just… give me a chance.” He said and walked out the room. I fall down on the floor, hugged my knee and began to sob. No I didn’t want him to leave. I want him to stay, with me and with the boys. I want him to stay and we could be 1 big happy family. We could be happy together.

The room was dark, there’s only the moon light, cutting the room into half. I stay there, as my room filled with my sobbing voice.

***

It was Christmas eve and Maura invited me to her house for a Christmas dinner. I told her I couldn’t come as I’m going to have dinner with my parents. “I’ve invited them to come as well. Please Neave. Let me spend Christmas eve with them.” She begged.

“What did my mom said?” I ask.

“She said I have to ask your permission. Please Neave. At least they could spend time with him.” She said.

Eventually I agree and she thanked me, excitedly and hung up the phone. I sigh and continue to prepare breakfast for the boys.

“Mommy”

I turn around and looked at the boys, they were smiling at me. I thought I heard a voice calling me ‘mommy’. “Did you call ‘mommy’? I ask them.

“Mommy!” Noel said pointing at me happily. Neil laughed as Noel’s food splash on my face from his spoon. “Mommy!” Neil said, looking at Noel but pointing at me and laughing at each other.

I was so thrilled and lift Noel up and kissed Neil. They finally talk and their first word was ‘mommy’! I put down Noel and ran to get the phone to call my mother when I saw a girl standing on our porch. I walk to the door and saw Barbara, facing her back to the door, mumbling something.

“Barbara?” I said as I open the door. I look around to see if she’s alone or with Niall. “Neave! Oh hey!” she said, nervous. I look at her and smile. “Come in.” I said. She nod.

“I hope you don’t mind. I needed to talk to you.” She said, playing with her finger, showing the sign of nervous.

“Mommy?” Noel and Neil walk in the living room.

“D-Did they just call you?” Barbara said, surprised. I smile and nod. “Congratulation! That’s adorable!” she said giving me a hug.

“Thanks. If you don’t, I’ll be right back.” I said.

“Yeah sure. I’ll wait.” She said and sat in the living room.

I went up, cleaning up the boys and went down. The boys sat on the floor, watching cartoon on the TV. “Would you like to join me in the kitchen?” I ask Barbara. She nod and we left to the kitchen where I clean up the table and plates. “What’s wrong?” I ask Barbara.

Barbara seems reluctant to say it, she wanted to but she’s afraid. I let her to think and wait for her to tell me what’s on her mind. Took her too long to ask me, so I opened up a topic for us to talk about, to ease down her nervous. I asked her to tell me about her model career and when did she started it.

Barbara told me about her past life, her career and a bit story of her life. We became friends slowly as we learn about each other, our dislikes and likes. Barbara said she loved the interior design of my house and she was stunned when she learn that I did everything. “I admire your work! Girl when I have a house, I’ll definitely going to call you.” She said. We laugh it off and continue to talk about random things.

When I finally see that she’s used to me, I asked her what was her main reason to come by today. Her face expression change and quiet down. “Is it about Niall?” I finally ask. She nod and turn to me. “Don’t worry Barbara, nothing is going on between me and Niall. We used to be-“

“Boyfriend and girlfriend. I know. He told me.” she cuts me of. “I’m not worry. To be honest, Niall and I are just friends. I don’t have feeling towards him and I know he feels the same way to me.”

I stopped at what I was doing and looked at her, waiting for her to continue.

“Niall loves someone, and no one else. He said she’s his one and only.” Barbara said, looking up at me.

“You’re my one and only Neave.”