Twenty day challenge.

Day Fourteen

Day Fourteen. *Unedited*

I sat in bed and stared at the ceilingwhich seems like a seriously overrated thing to do, but I needed to think without exploding my brain with the mass load of information that I had received over the past thirteen days. It seems just strange to think that just a few days ago Jen and I were discussing about how exciting my life had become now that Finch had entered it.

She asked if he was taking a shower over the phone and I was pretty much glad that she wasn’t there to see me blush furiously, it was a certain way to kill the conversation that’s for sure, and after all who asks someone a question that personal? I terminated the conversation after that with no hard feelings between the two of us, after all back then we were best friends and I wasn’t sure where I stood with Jennifer anymore.

Things weren’t just messed up between the two of us they were royally messed up, messed up beyond repair and I didn’t have a clue what to do about it, how could I prove to my best friend that what she saw wasn’t what she thought she saw when she won’t even talk to me?

I think the only good thing that I’ve accomplished over the past few weeks is helping Georgie and Rory find out that they were destined to be together however cheesy that may sound, I may have more knowledge than I did when I started the challenges but I can’t help thinking that I would be much happier being completely oblivious to the knowledge.

It’s weird when you think about it, sometimes a person could yearn for knowledge yet when they know the knowledge they simply wish they could erase the knowledge from their mind as if they had discovered the world’s most dangerous secret or something. I needed advice from someone who wasn’t my friend, I needed advice on how to deal with Sophie and her ‘little problem’ as everyone called it, advice on how to rekindle my friendship with Jennifer and most importantly advice on how to deal with the biggest mystery of all; Finch.

Since when did my life become so complicated? I went to sleep peacefully letting my subconscious drift into a world of possibilities, a world where everything was simple, a world where there weren’t any mysteries lurking around hidden corners, a world where it was possible for everyone to be happy at the same time, which quite frankly didn’t seem possible in this moment in time.

In the morning I made a mid-year resolution, which seems far more fitting during April, after all what was the significance of New Year’s resolutions? After all we would forget about the majority of them after a few weeks, it would be far more fitting just to make resolutions whenever we felt like it, why should we only make new promises for a certain date? My mid-year resolution was that I would talk to Jennifer; and this time I wouldn’t take no for an answer, she had gotten the wrong end of the stick, but right now there was no-one there to prove her wrong, it was high time that, that was highest on my list of priorities, could I really just chuck my friendship away like that?

I went round to her house early the next day, and I stood at the doorstep knowing fully well that if she answered the door I would just receive a slammed door in my face, after all she had to come out eventually didn’t she? Eventually she did come out her face clouded over as she saw me, she tried to barge past me but my agility played in my favour.

“Jennifer-,” I began she tried furiously to barge past me again and again but I stood steadily although I felt myself wavering a bit.

“I have nothing to say to you,” she said harshly finally succeeding to barge past me before striding briskly past me, I stepped into a fast jog in order to catch up with her.

It was then that I completely lost it, no-one had the right to act like this, “look Jen just be quiet and listen,” I said putting extra empathise on the final syllable of the final word, I spoke with authority in my voice and I saw her stagger slightly. “It was a hug, a hug between friends, I was doing him a favour, a hug between friends,” I said simply.