Lost (Trevor Moran fanfic)

Chapter 21-Feelings

It's been a month without him.

A month of loneliness.

I don't know why I miss him so much. He hurt me so bad. After everything. Everything that we went through together. It just doesn't make sense.

I try not to think about him, but he creeps into my mind and I just lose it.

My anxiety has sky rocketed. Sometimes the panic attacks wake me up and I don't go back to sleep. I just sit there. Teary eyed and shaking.

I shouldn't want him. I shouldn't care. He didn't really love me. Did he? If he did, he wouldn't have done it.

I just don't know what to do.

I feel to young to be so heartbroken.

My mom told me she felt the same way about a boy once. But she was probably just trying to cheer me up.

Lea visits often and we eat birthday cake ice cream -the kind with the huge frosting globs- and Cheetos while watching Dr.Who over and over and over.

I haven't added anything to my artwall. I haven't even picked up a pencil. I lost all inspiration. I can't even draw the comedy sketches because I barely even laugh.

You think I'm being to dramatic?

Picture this:

You meet a boy.

He helps you save your BEST FRIENDS LIFE.

He puts his own life in danger multiple times for you.

Stays with you even though you're being hunted by some pedofile.

Tells you he wants YOU he loves YOU. Only YOU.

Then he kisses another girl.

Melissa explained that he had told her that he loved her. And he said he was bored of me.

I didn't know what to believe so I just erased both of them from my world.

But I didn't erase Trevor from my mind.

Trevor-

"Bye guys!! I'll see you next week!" I say, ending my video and wiping off my fake grin.

My head immediately falls onto my bed.

As my eyes begin to water from the memory of her smile, her laugh, her.

The previous month had been the worst of my existence. I missed her so much.

I couldn't forget everything we had been through. I never felt as much hate towards a person like I feel towards Melissa.

I called her countless times. But she didn't answer. I even showed up at her house. Nothing.

How could I blame her though? After seeing that. I just want her here. With me.

If I could just get Melissa to confess.

Hey guys! Short boring chapter but the next is gonna be pretty intense.

So stay tuned!!!!!

Songsssssss

The Harold Song by Kesha

Goodbye by Avril Lavigne

Byeeeee