More than we seem (1D Louis/Harry)

12. Changing direction

HELLOOO!!

First i want to send my love to Zayn who had to fly home to london a couple of days ago because of the passing of his auntie :'( The other boys had to perform without him and they refused to call themselves one direction, acknowlaging that they aren't one direction without him.

A link to What makes you beautiful is on the side, where Louis is supposed to  sing their solo but he lets the audience do it <3

Love you boys so much <3

I know i updated like, a day ago but i really have nothing else to do so ima go on with chapter 12!!

So Louis' confused and Harry's distressed... how do you think things are gonna turn out?

It won't stay G rated and fluffy for long. Ratings will change as the story progresses, including strong language and mature themes.

This is very much a Louis Tomlinson x Harry Styles slash fic so if you don't like this kind of thing i suggest you don't read this ;)

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Louis' POV

Just calm down Lou, he didn't mean it.

atleast i think he didn't.

I walked along the beach, carrying my TOMS and kicking my feet weakly when a wave splashed over them. A couple of fans would see me and try to get my attention but i wouldn't take any notice. I wanted to.. but for some reason i couldn't, i had way too much on my mind. The only thing i could do was listen to my own thoughts buzzing around my head and the dim thumping of my heart as i pondered.

He loves me? I couldn't have meant it like that. Why do i care anyway?

I don't! i don't care... just.. stop thinking about it.

We've said that we love eachother before it's no big deal...

But he seemed so sincere.. so truthful.. i just don't understand.

I don't want to go through this confusion again, it was too much last time and i hate hurting his feelings. Of course im talking about what happened when we were on the Xfactor, he told me that he had a crush on me and i thought he was joking so i played along. About a month later i found out he was telling the truth and i felt like the biggest git on the face of the Earth, No, worse than a git, i felt like an arse, i played with his feelings and practically spat in his face when i told him the truth. Harry forgave me but it took a long time for me to forgive myself. Eventually he told me that he was over me but he still loved me in that 'bestfriends' kind of way, and i think that's how our bromance got started.

I sighed loudly which really sounded more like a grunt but i was just so frustrated.

I thought back to the hospital. When he grabbed my hand and wrapped my arms around him. How he nuzzled into my neck and sighed.. he couldn't really still...like me.. could he? I mean, he was completely off his face, he was drugged and tired and.... weirdly cute.

I smiled and chuckled to myself, thinking about when he slurred his sentances and giggled showing all of his teeth.

When he gripped my shirt and almost cried when he thought i was leaving him.

The way he looked at me when he said that he.....

Another wave splashed over my feet and i stopped dead, looking down at the sparkling water and took in a few deep breaths as my feet sunk into the sand.

Why am i out here? i should be back at the hospital with him. I need to know what he has to say.

I looked up to see the same jetty Harry and I once sat under a year and a half ago. I wonder if he remembers that? probably not....