More than we seem (1D Louis/Harry)

20. Love is a strange word

WOOP WOOP! CHAPTER 20! E'REBODY PUT YA' HANDS UP!

Anywaayyyyssss i've been on a story writing fit lately. I had to write a story for english, sose and outdoor ed but i never got the chance to update this one...

Basically what i've been doing is writing about a paragraph each day or two and then doing the butt tons of homework that's gathered up over the past few weeks,

so yes.

it's taken a while.

and i'm sorry.

but you must know i upload as often as i can as well as keeping up with all the other promises i've been making and failing to keep over the time i've been writing this.

but here i go! Oh and just a random facty thingo. I went to see The Woman in Black! AMAZING! it was just... *sigh* i love Daniel Radcliffe. It was the scariest thing i've ever seen though... If you haven't seen it. See it. Right Now. Go on... do it.

ALSO!! Don't forget to go read my lovely m'lady SharonMalik_'s very own Larry story 'Meant to be' :D Dedication above.

On with the story!

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Louis' POV

I hated doing that to the lads but there's no way i'm going to let them all get killed over my stupid mistake. Too many people have been hurt and if the people i care for most in my screwed up life are injured.. or worse i just don't know how well i'd deal with that. I certainly wouldn't be the role model our fans want me to be. There's nothing to do but blame myself. It is my fault anyway. Everything. None of this would be happening if i hadn't been so selfish, if i had thought it through, done something smarter, maybe this would be different now. Maybe i wouldn't be in a taxi driving off to find my kidnapped bestfriend who was taken by the pshycopath who hates me for too many reasons to count.

I buried my face into my hands and sighed. Chewing a dent into my lip the thoughts of what could happen, plauged my mind. If anything happens to him, i'll never forgive myself. Ever. Just when he's been away from me for a few hours it feels like there's a gaping hole in my heart where he should be. Nothing's changed, even though now i know how he feels about me. Nothing's changed. He's still my best friend and nothing anyone can say or do can change that. I'll protect him at whatever cost. I still feel like the biggest idiot on the face of the earth for not seeing it sooner. Everything in my life, everything bad or worrying just piled up so high, i couldn't see over it to find all the good things. I couldn't see Harry. Now it's like something's been opened up. The haze over my eyes that Marcus caused has somehow cleared. Was that his intention? Does he want me to share Harry's feelings? If so, why? I don't share them... atleast i don't think i do...

I wonder if he really does love me... I mean it's not like he hasn't said it before but i never knew he meant it like... that.

It's a funny word, love. It's happy and sad all at the same time, as well as being exciting and weirdly depressing. It has different meanings but in the end, it only has one true meaning. The fact that when you love someone, you know you can't spend another day away from them, like you're tied to them by an invisible rope, and how everything seems to light up once they enter the room, when you hold them in your arms... Do i feel that way about my best friend?

Not everything has cleared up yet. It may take a while but eventually i'll see again.

I turned in my seat to see the same taxi following me ever since i ditched the boys. There's no doubt it's them, as much as i hate to admit it they're smart and i should have known they weren't going to give up that easily. But i'm not going to give them a choice. I looked ahead and saw a pile up of cars at the intersection and i figured now is a better time than any to start. "Hey, you see that taxi about three cars back?" i said catching the drivers attention. "Yeah." he said simply