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2 weeks later..
"Shut up already!"
"All im saying is that you don't have to be so stubborn!" My brother yelled
"I dont care Kendall leave me alone!" I walked away
"I dont see how vontae deals with you"
"What vontae gotta do with anything?!"
"He tells me about y'all little relationship"
"Umm you mean friendship"
"No relationship"
"Im in a relationship already" i defended
"You still go out with that cancer dude?" He asked stupidly
   "His name is Brandon!" I yelled
  "When the last time have you visited this Brandon in the hospital?"
"Kendall shut up and leave the damn girl alone" my mom said as she walked into the kitchen with us.
"Oh yea and ky, vontae called me and he wanted to know if i wanted to go to dinner with him" my mom said
"What?!? Why?"
"I dont know, i guess to talk about things"
"Yea but what does he want to know from you that he cant ask me?"
"Like you would tell him that you never kissed a guy before" Kendall added
"Kendall i wish you would shut up already!"
"Baby its ok, its good you havent had your first kiss yet, boys have cutties."
"Mom I'm 16, not 6"
"You look 6" kendall said referring to my size.
"So does your daughter."
Then Kendall threw his orange peeling at me.
Kendall knows this girl thats 19 and and is accusing him of being her baby daddy, but i wouldnt be surprised if he was.
"Thats enough you two, stop playing and clean up this house, ill be back later" she said then left out the house.
"I call the guest bathroom and living room!" I yelled
"Dude you didnt clean the kitchen in fucking years" he complained
"Wow 2 weeks kendall"
"Im not washing these dishes and if i do then its not gonna be that clean"
He so lazy.
"I dont care we have paper plates, and plastic forks"
"Why dont nobody use them!!" He yelled
"Nigguh YOU dont use them"
He shrugged and went to his room.
I rolled my eyes and started cleaning the living room.

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"And THEN he was like ooooo you that girl from the store." Amariah went on and on about how her crush talked to her.
She came all the way to my house just to tell me this.
She lives in my neighborhood so she didn't do that much walking.
"Ok Amariah you told me this story like 100 times already"
"DUDE HE LIKES ME!" She screamed
She always the one to jump to conclusions.
"You don't know that Amariah" i laughed
"Ky you always doubting something and whats going on between you and Mr. Itakegirlsouttoeateveryday." She laughed
"Really, and he doesnt take me out to eat everyday-"
"Well every other day, i think he likes you" she cuts me off
"Probably but thats on him"
"What do you mean thats on him?!" She said in a loud tone
"You must've forgot about Brandon"
She rolled her eyes and looked at me like i was crazy.
"How many times have Brandon cheated on you.. 3!"
"Why are you bringing up the past?"
"Nigga, before he got cancer, he was a player who wanted to get in yo pants"
"He changed" I defended him
"He says he changed, but his actions says otherwise"
"Ok Amariah"
"You just need  to break up with him already"
Then we heard a knock on my door.
I got up from my bed and went to go open it. I was surprised by who i saw.
"Vontae what the hell are you doing here?"
"Well your mom and I went out and-" i cut him off
"Oh yea and about that.. what the fuck were you thinking, taking my mom out like shes a queen or something"
"Maybe i just wanted to spend time with her."
"FOR WHAT?! You dont even know her"
"Maybe i wanna get to know her"
"Ky you cant get mad at the boy for wanting to spend time with your mother" Amariah said
I rolled my eyes at her stupid comment.
Its not that i dont want him around my mom, because him and Kendall are friends.. but taking my mom out for lunch.. my mom likes to run her mouth ALOT. She would tell you everything embarrassing about me, then forget what she says.
"Ok what did she tell you then?" I asked
"Can you let me in first?" He asked
  I let him in and he sat down on my bed.
   "Well ill be downstairs with Kendall he's probably bored" Amariah made an excuse for her to leave.
   Before i could say anything she just walked out.
  It was 5 minutes of silence, we just sat there awkwardly, we both forgot about my question i asked.
  "Your mom is cool."  He chuckled
"I bet she is"
   "Why are you so mad about me hanging with your mom" he asked.
  "I don't know I guess because it's just weird it's just that you know I I I don't know OK" i got frustrated
  He laughed
  "It's OK she didn't say anything I couldn't handle"
  "Why did you want to hang out with her anyway?"
   "to get to know her better"
"Why tho?"
  "Does it matter"
"yeah it does because you have no reason to want to hang out with her, I mean unless you do"
  "you sound stupid"
"how do I sound stupid?"
  "I can't have lunch with older people now?"
  "I dont care, but thats my mom your having lunch with"
"What's the big deal, just tell me"he said
  "I will after you tell me why you-"
"Fine, I wanted to have lunch with her so I could talk to her about you"
  "Talk to her about me for what?"
"I just wanted to see why you were so stubborn sometimes." He playfully rolled his eyes
  "Vontae you're full of shit"
  He laughed.
"Now tell me why it's weird"
   "Because wouldn't it be weird if I went out to lunch with your mom"
  "No"
  "Yes it would!" I chuckled
   He didn't respond, he just got up from my bed and picked up the picture frame with me and Brandon holding hands and kissing.
  "This him?" He asked stupidly
"No shit" i got up and stood next to him.
  "I saw him around school before, i didn't know yall dated"
  "Yea alot of people dont know"
"Why you say that?"
   "He wanted to keep us lowkey"
"And you wasn't suspicious about that?" He asked while putting down the frame.
   "I mean, at first but then we talked about it and-"
  "And your still with the nigga" he nodded his head like he knew everything
  "Yea" i said quietly
  "Sit down" he demanded
  I sat down next to him on my bed.
  "This Brandon girl-" he started
"He's a boy"
  "No he's a BITCH!"
  I rolled my eyes.
  "You gotta stop doing that" he said
  "But anyways. This Brandon bitch is hiding something obviously. If he really wanted to be with you, he would tale you out, brag about you to his friends, have a nice relationship with your mom, ya know. But if he wanna keep you 'lowkey' than that means hes seeing somebody else, hes taking somebody else out to eat, he's bragging about someone else to his friends. You don't deserve him."  He continued
  "Then who do I deserve, hm?" I raised my eyebrows
  "I dont know, someone in the future maybe"
    "And how do you know all of this?"
"Its fucking obvious ky, your just blind" he chuckled
   "Well im going to sew him this weekend and im gonna talk to him about it"
  "Please do, now back to Vonate time"
  I laughed
  "Really? 'Vontae time'
  "Girl you know you love me" he teased as he got close to my face.
  "I really dont" i laughed
  He got closer to my face, playfully and I was backing up, using my elbows for support, i just ended up on my back.
  He got on top of me and tried to kiss my face. 
  "MOVE! I dont want your germs" i laughed
  He laughed out loud, resting his head on my chest.
  He picked his head back up looking me in my eyes.
  Now everything suddenly turned so serious, i dont know how the hell that happened.
   He got closer to my face as his eyes stayed with mines. I wanted him to get up but at the same time, I didnt.
   He was only inches away from kissing me. I closed my eyes, then i felt him getting up.
  I wanted him to kiss me, but at the same time it would've been wrong.
His lips just look so plum and-
I need to stop.
Stay focused on you and Brandon's relationship. Stay focused.