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First love

"Come on Ky, you have to get out of bed, i dont want you locked in here the whole weekend" Amariah whined
"I dont care"
"... your still upset?"
I didn't answer.
"Look ky, Brandon wasn't meant for you anyways, trust me."
"Thats nice"
"Ughh ky! Just get up!! We could go to the mall, movies, whatever you want to do"
"I wanna stay in my bed. Thats what i wanna do"
"Ok fine, then whats the point of me staying"
"I never asked you to come over" i chuckled
She rolled her eyes
"Fine" she said, about to walk out but i stopped her.
"Ill call you ok?"
She didn't respond she just left out.

Its not that I miss Brandon or im in my feelings, because I'm not. Its just that i feel so stupid. I really really cared about him and i wanted the best for him but he didn't feel the same about me. And people even told me this but i never listened. I spent so many years with him and to think he would change, that made me feel even more stupid!

I heard knock on my door.
"Huuhhhh"
Kendall and Vontae both walked in.
"Get out!"
"Nice seeing you too" vontae said
"Where are y'all in here?"
"Momma told me to come check up on you since your dealing with a major point in your life" kendall explained
My mom is caring.
"You'll be the last person in the world i would want to come check up on me"
"Wait what happened?" Vontae asked.
"Nothing"
"Her boyfriend broke her heart and now shes-" i caught Kendall off
"Nothing. He didn't break my heart"
"Brandon?" Vontae asked.
"Yup thats his name" Kendall responded.
"What did he do?"
"He cheated on her" Kendall laughed
I swear i hate kendall with all my heart.
"Please get out" i said quietly
"iight, cmon vontae"
"Ima stay in here for a while, Ima meet you downstairs" Vonate responded.
Kendall nodded then left out.
"Vontae I-"
"So he cheated on you?" He cut me off
"It doesn't matter anymore, its over with"
"Thats why your staying in bed.. Thats why you never texted me back.. he really hurt your feelings?"
"No he-"
"He must have! You should've been let him go, none of this would've never happened, now you locked up in here, in the dark looking crazy while he's out with some other bitch not giving two fucks about how you feel!" He yelled.
I dont know who's more mad, me or him.
"And your yelling at me like im the bad person! Like I'm the one who fucked up!"
"Well your stupid for even staying with him, Amariah told me that she been told you to leave him, this is your fault."
"I don't need your stupid speech, telling me that IM stupid! I messed up and now your mad at me, why do you even care!"
"Im not mad at you KY! Im mad at the fact that you let him play you like some toy and now your the one thats hurt! Y'all relationship been fucked up"
"Vonate just leave me alone! You know nothing about our relationship so just SHUT UP!"
"I don't even know why i fucking deal with you.. Your so-"
"WELL THEN LEAVE ME ALONE!"
"I CANT!"
Silence....
"Ky i try to leave you alone, trust me, so i wouldn't.... you know what, if you want me to leave you alone, then i would"
"I understand you want to be alone at this time and you don't want to talk to no one-" i caught him off
"I wouldn't mind talking to you, but just stop yelling at-"
"Im sorry, i just feel like, he wasn't worth your time. And it pisses me off" he said
"Why?" I asked
"I care for you" he chuckled.
"And its so weird because we only been talking for a month or so.. your just so different" he continued
"How am I different?"
"Like if i brung other girls out, they would go run to all their friends and tell them or the girl would immediately start thinking that we date and it spreads around the school but really i just wanted to hang out"
I laughed
"Whats so funny?" She chuckled
"I dont know.. but i heard girls going around saying that they had a good time with you or whatever, thats why i thought you were a hoe" i laughed
"Alot of people think that, but to be honest when i get into a relationship i dont even care about other people. One reason why my boys dont like it when i get into a relationship"
"I would feel bad for your girlfriend"
"Why?" He asked.
"Because your such a stalker and you don't even see it"
"How am i a stalker?"
"You come to my house almost everyday to 'hang out with my brother' but before we even started talking i only seen you over here once"
He started laughing.
"That means nothing" he defended himself
"It means everything VonVon"
"Call me that again and I'm gonna rip off your lips and nail them to the wall"
"Woah! No need to be so violent"
Then my phone starts ringing.
Not a good time Amariah.
I looked at my phone and it wasn't Amariah it was Brandon.
Vontae snatched my phone from me and quickly answered it.
"Hello!" He yelled
"Vontae give me my phone"
"Don't worry about that. Stop calling this phone, she moved on and if i see that you called again then ima beat your ass i dont care if your sorry ass is sick ima knock the sickness out of you.. yes this is her boyfriend, problem bitch?.. exactly" then he hung up.
"Well thanks 'boyfriend' for your help"
"No problem, tell me if calls you again"
"Will do"
He checked the time on his phone and his eyes got big.
"Ima catch up with you later." He said
"Where are you going?"
"My mom and I are having family and friends over.. she does it every once in a while, i hate it"
"Why?"
"Because my cousins come over and i hate those snotty nose ass children"
I laughed
"But one day your gonna have to meet my mom" he continued
"Yea its only fair since you met my mom already"
"She would love you, you remind me of her"
"She must be so awesome then!"
We both laughed.
"She almost ran me over with a lawn mower"
I bust out laughing
"Your..lying" i said in between laughs.
"Wanna see the scar?" He asked
"Of course, what kind of question is that!"
He pulled down his nike sock and pointed to the scar.
"Bro when did this happen?"
"Yesterday" he responded
I laughed.
"Good thing it wasn't on purpose"
"Haha, ima let you think that!" He pulled back up his nike sock and got up.
I got up with him and we gave each other a big tight hug, i don't even know why.
"Ima call you" he said then he let go.
"Ok"
I watched him leave and then i did my little happy dance.

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"So you made up your mind?" Amariah asked over the phone.
"Yea i guess, but I'm gonna miss my red hair soo much!"
"Its ok ky, your gonna look so cute! Then could i please do your make up."
She knows i don't like make up, i only do my eyebrows and put on some mascara, that other stuff is uncalled for.
"please. Please. Please. Please"
"Ok fine but just this one time. And thats it!"
"YES!! Your gonna look so pretty! I promise.. we have to go shopping!"
"Amariah your going over board now.. I'm just dying my hair black and your just doing my make up.. no biggie"
Amariah loves makeup.. thats her life, I personally thinks she looks better without it but she always disagree when i tell her that. She just thinks im being 'nice'.
"I cant wait!! Were gonna do all of this tomorrow ok?" She said
"Amariah! Why so soon-"
"Be happy i didnt say today, now go to sleep and dream about your vontae"
"My vontae? Excuse me?"
"Yep YOUR vontae, since you don't wanna kick him out your room but you wanna kick me out!"
I laughed.
"Amariah i already apologized, i just needed to explain something to him" i lied.
"Stop lying ky! But its all good. But dont forget.. bros before hoes.."
"Vontae's not a hoe, sooo...."
"KY!"
"Im kidding im kidding, your more important, your my best friend, you should know this already"
"Mhm but i hope you know as soon as yall start dating your not gonna want to let him go"
"Who ever said were gonna start dating?"
"Cmon na ky."
I started laughing. She thinks she knows every single thing.
"Your laughing.. but he might be your real first love"
First love.
Ugh i hate those words put together.