Love Is For Fools - Fifty Shades Of Grey: Elena's Story #Explicit [Fifty Shades]

CHAPTER NINETEEN

Turning the extension into a secret BDSM space whilst masquerading as a gym, was one of my better ideas. There was no way I could justify to Grace why Christian would still need to come over once it was completed and sneaking him into the boudoir regularly was just asking for trouble. At least having Claude put me through work-outs alongside Christian's kick-boxing training, also added more believability to the situation. I'll readily admit - I've breathed a little easier at night since Christian turned sixteen. At least in the eyes of the law he is now over the age of consent and despite having the brains and disposition of someone much older, I'd be lying if this 'arrangement' didn't make me slightly uneasy. We both risk utter devastation if we were ever discovered. And yet...

...And yet...I can't leave him alone.

He is simply the most captivating person I have ever met. How he has lived through so much already at such a young age and still be this amazing, beautiful, talented young man...

...He just has to believe in himself to reach his full potential.

And I intend to do everything in my power to help him get there...

"What time does Linc fly in tomorrow?"
Linc's name on Christian's beautiful lips brings me out of my reverie. We are warming down at the ballet barre in the gym after a punishing session with Claude, and his unexpected query makes me wobble mid-squat. Linc has absolutely nothing to do with Christian, and I take great measures to keep both worlds apart.
"Eleven in the morning. Why?"
Christian grimaces then shrugs. Anger rises within me. The last thing I need from him is his mind on Linc.
"I've told you. Our marriage is now purely for appearances."
He looks at me sullenly. "Do you and Linc still fuck?"
What the..? Does he seriously think I'm some kind of slut???
My anger spirals.
"HOW DARE YOU!" I snarl. Christian's eyes widen and he immediately apologises for his remark and lowers his gaze. He has learnt so much...and yet still has so much to learn...
"Linc and I haven't shared a bed in years," I hiss. "I was faithful to him until I met Adam; who first introduced me to the lifestyle and even then I carried around a lot of guilt - despite Linc not showing much remorse or change in attitude towards his affairs."
"Do you still see Adam?" He mutters his eyes still downcast.
WHAT??? Now he thinks I'm still fucking Adam??? Doesn't he realise I'm only interested in him?
"I had to stop seeing Adam last August."
"Why?"
Oh Christian, Christian, Christian...
"Do you REALLY not know the answer to that?" My tone is much softer and he responds by lifting his eyes and gazing at me apprehensively. I grasp his chin and stare into the huge steel depths. "I. MET. YOU." I honestly don't know how much clearer I can be or how else to hammer the point home to him.
Christian gasps in disbelief. "Did...Did you really stop seeing him because of me?" He asks in wonder. "Wasn't he mad?"
"Adam told me from the onset we weren't exclusive. But when I was with him...It was like there was just the two of us in the world. At least I knew where I stood with him. With Linc...Well, he once vowed he'd be faithful only to me. Now look at us."
"But you still wear his rings...Still enjoy all the material trappings..." He muses.
Before I can check myself, my hand cracks sharply across his face, making him stagger backwards in shock and surprise.
NOW I'M REALLY PISSED!
"I don't appreciate being judged, Christian!" I snarl vehemently. "Not by you and not by anyone else!" Oh he has SO overstepped the mark this time. "Now either grab your stuff and leave, or go and lie down on the exercise bench." I point irately towards it, my hand trembling in barely contained anger.

Will he stay and take his punishment...or will he run?

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