Almost Broken. (Finished.)

Broken

Okay, so this is really short, but I thought I would just post it and there will probably be a longer chapter later, I don't when but hopefully soon!

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Later in the afternoon, Sawamura and his boyfriend did show, I am currently I'm and having a staring contest with said boyfriend.

"Okay, let's get on with this." He says breaking eye contact with, it only lasted three minutes. With most people, I get uncomfortable making eye contact, but he said he wanted to test something, so that's how all this got started.
I just nod, waiting for him to continue
"So today his my dad off, so instead of being your "doctor"" He says with air quotes" I'm going to be your friend, sound good?" He says smiling brightly.
" And I'm going to come over every few days, and we're going to talk and get to know each they're, at the end of that I should be able to give or recommend something that could in the future help, but I'm going to need your help with that....I mean you do want to feel better right?" He asks waiting for my answer which never comes just like with all the other questions he asks
"But for that to happen you're going to need to talk to me." He says looking over at me, I look him in the eyes for a second then shy away and look back down at my lap.
"It's going to be hard, I know. It probably is horrible to be the space you were, but you're safe now. " He says smiling over at me again.
Why is he so happy? you'd think with his job he'd be done with listening to people problems.
"Okay, we're going to start with getting to know each their better, you go first."
I nod.
He gives me and reassuring smile, then looks away.
" I'm--I'm Matsukawa Issei. I'm nineteen." I stammer
" Okay, my turn. I"m Sugawara Kōshi, but most people call me Suga. I'm twenty-five, I started being a psychiatrist when I was very young. I skipped almost all of school because I was "Smarter" than everyone or so I was told." He said, looking at the painting on the wall
" Do you think you could tell me more about yourself?" He asks looking back over at me.
I think about it, I mean I probably could but I find it harder to talk now I can speak without having a stammer.
I still nod, just to get this over with, I think for a minute there's not much about me that I could talk about. I think for a few more minutes, coming up with nothing
"What--what is it--it you wanted to kno--know?" I say quietly
"What do you enjoy doing?"He asks
"I----I " I start
He looks over at me again, it seems likes he's trying not pressure me into anything, but it's helping I just feel more pressure
"It's okay you know." He says smiling lightly
"Wh--what?" I ask and look at him, surprised what is okay?
"Oh, don't worry about your stammer you have nothing to be ashamed for."
I just stare at him in disbelieve. This is all my fault, I was the one who messaged a random person on the internet, I was the only who continued to talk to him, I was the one who got in a fight with my mom about everything, I was the one who thought it would be a great Idea to go to japan to live with him. This is all my fault. I brought this on myself.
"Go on," he says again
"I--I'm sorry? I---But this is all my fault...." I say
He looks at me for a second, at first It feels like he's judging me, then his face softens
"You may feel that way, but I don't think we see eye to eye which is fine."
I look at him again
"Ok---okay...."
"Anyway, back to getting to know each their! what is something you love doing?"He says looking back at me and smiling
"Ummmm--------I enjoy reading---I guess"
"Me too, if you don't mind I know a great book you could try. I actually know two, one is fantasy, and the others fiction, but I find the type of books are the best, it really helps when your life isn't too great this is the best way to escape I find. And I've tried everything. " He replies
"Wh---what one's?" I ask
"Okay, the first one, is perks of being a wallflower it's great, and I think you'd enjoy it, the next one is a series it's called raven cycle, I look them up sometime."He smiles again, he's such a smiley person
"th--Thank you." I say I try to smile and quietly look away
"You're very welcome."
He talks for awhile more I talk sometimes, most of it I'm just thinking of what he says, he's very nice a little while later, Sawamura comes back, he said he just had to grab a few things and cleaned a bit. He apparently helps my mother out, he said when I left and she moved away from her ex she was really depressed and hardly did anything for herself, so he helped her and they became friends and now he just still helps out.

"You ready?" He asks once he put everything away.
"Yes!"He says, he jumps up and runs over to him "I'll come back tomorrow, and we can talk some more okay? I think you should talk to more people, and talk to your mom she missed you a lot, okay? like a lot " He says as Sawamura puts his arm around him
I just nod.
They leave soon after and I make my way to my room, laying down on the bed I stare at the ceiling for awhile then I hear beeping it's coming from my phone I take it out of my hoodie pocket, I unlock it
It has one message from, the guy I talked to a few months I think it's really weird how he hasn't given up yet. It's just a simple text, it just says Hi. I think for a minute should I message him, Suga said I should talk to more people, but I don't think he met online seeing as this is where it kind of all happened.
I turn off my phone and try to sleep, today wasn't as bad as I thought at the begin.

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I hope you liked it! it probably would've been longer if my friend didn't come over in the middle of me writing this, but oh well