Almost Broken. (Finished.)

A step forward.

Laying in bed just staring at the fuzzy ceiling thinking, and not thinking.

It's early afternoon, three days ago was the group.

I'm still kinda thinking of Hanamaki and how he said he wanted to get together for something, I don't really understand though, I told Suga about it, he said it was good for me, but take it slow whatever that means.

I haven't told my mother yet, I just don't know how to bring it up and she's been working most of the time lately now that I can kinda take care of myself more.

It's good, but she's still not taking enough time for herself it feels.

Suga isn't coming over today, my mom is at work till late.

So today, I really have nothing to do.

I could go out to the living room and watch tv, but all we have is the news and lame tv.

I could find something to do on my phone, but I don't want to.

I'm not scared of it, I just don't want it near me.

Some people will probably say I'm scared of it, like Suga even though I always have it on me for some reason.

I only ever use it as a clock though, because I don't talk to anyone ever on there.

I never liked talking on the phone much though, I mostly texted.

Texting worked though, I didn't talk much and it was away to talk to people.

Some days I didn't even talk to my mom in person I'd just messaged her then leave to go to the library or something.

Before I blocked out most of my past, now I just couldn't care enough, and Suga said it was good to remember somethings.

A timer went off some enough making me jump I checked my phone, and it just said eat.

I turned off the timer and got up going into the kitchen to get anything.

I grab some bread and went to the living room to stare at the wall in there.

At least I get time alone before I was always with someone.

My mother said that she still did want someone with me at all times.

She said it would just make her feel better.

Even though I wouldn't be going anywhere, anyway.

It made some sense to me, I mean I always forgot my glasses and cane.

Speaking of those I have neither of them, no wonder everything looks weird.

I don't get up to get my glasses though.

I finish eating my very sad breakfast in an hour.

What is sad. I soon get up though and just lay on the floor.

I did fall, but we're not going to talk about that.

I stare at the ceiling.

"This is boring," I mumble to myself.

I get up a little while later and stumble through the house to my room to grab my glasses and cane.

I feel like an old person.

Hot right.

Nah.

I go back out to the living room.

I sit on the couch for a while, before there's a knock on the door, I jump a bit.

I go over and open the door, to be met with Suga on the other side, talking on the phone.