Almost Broken. (Finished.)

Very much broken.

I wake up on the cold hard floor in the dark again, just like every other day for the past four years, I just lay there, for a while not wanting to hurt myself from moving...I look over to the door just a bit away from me to see if there's food, sometimes there's not, today there's not so I'll most likely later in the week seeing as he won't be back for a while. it's been like this for over four years, I had came to Japan four years ago too, meet someone that I only knew online which is stupid, I know. But it seemed so real, and now here I am in someones basement the same guy I had been talking to four years ago, now he only comes down here when he needs to witch is mostly just to beat me until I'm knocked out, the rest I don't know.

When I first got here everything was fine, he met me at the airport, he told me we'll be together forever (I know that sounds shady but I was hurting I just wanted someone to need me) after a while he just fucked me (I'm asexual so that was an experience) and sometimes fed me but then a month later he threw me in the basement with nothing but the clothes on my back and my phone and phone charger (I know I have my priority's straight), I haven't used it in a while, I was hoping I'd be gone by now, nobody's bothered to call me, I don't even think people are looking for me and if they were, they probably gave up by now..

I've given up as well.

Look around the room everything is the same the floor is old hard wood that made it through world two probably, and the rug I'm laying on is not even a rug anymore to be honest, and there's nothing else really there's my blood on the floor dry and some new, there's a few holes in the walls where he punched them when I fell too soon, not that that stopped him much, and a bucket in one corner.

I'm not sure how I Matsukawa Issei could get kidnapped I mean I'm not even a kid anymore (Not that has ever stopped anyone before.) and I'm fucking 6'2 that just shouldn't happen, but then again why does anything happen? but here I am, pretty much dying in some guys basement I met online, I would've been fine if I just stayed home and not fought with my family I was never really close with them, but it got worse after I met him.... I'm really not proud of myself, I just want it to be over.. I know he's not going to be back for a few days now... I should really call the cops but that didn't work out the first time so I'm not going to do that again... I just want him to finely end it... Like just kill me or maybe throw me off the top of this building I really don't care at this point, just...Just....Just end it...

I hear banging upstairs I bring my knees up to my chest to try and get smaller

There's more banging then a slam of a door..Thank god he's gone for now

I stay in a ball for a while longer till I know he's gone for sure.. After an hour of embodying a ball, I try and sit up switch is a bad Idea given the beating he gave me last night, but I'm used to the pain, not in a manly way just that it's happened so many times now that I'm used too it.

I look down at myself my jeans are pretty much ripped to shreds, and my white shirt is pretty much red now. I lean my head against the wall, and take deep breath (Try to anyway, I probably have broken rips or something...)

Then I try and crawl over to a hole in the wall where I put my phone and charger, I have no internet or numbers on my phone but at least I can now what day it is and time...

I get over to the hole and pull out my phone, I then just lay on the floor

I turn on my phone, i blink at the screen until my eyes adjust

I look at the date and time

It's December/28/16

The time is 5.am

I blacked out around five yesterday

Well, I go onto the texting app everything is wiped off not from him, but from me I did after I left my house now I can't get in contact with anyone.