Love Annalise

Twenty-three

Dear J,

It's been about a month since I've written to you.

I've been doing okay.

But also not okay.

For the past 2 days I've been sitting on my bed staring at the nothingness that is my life.

My chest feels empty.

I don't feel anything anymore, I'm just numb.

Mom would think I'm pushover now.

The only thing I feel is pain, when I talk about you.

But happiness when I close my eyes and see you.

That's the only time I do, when I close my eyes.

They say our hearts are wild and that's why our ribs are cages but I disagree.

I think the reason our ribs are cages, is because they keep all our emotions inside.

And cage the bad things that we don't talk about and let the good things out.

That's why people don't talk about being depressed or sad.

Because their cages keep it.

Miss you.

Love,
Annalise