A series of one shots based from suggestions from Tumblr. Textposts.

I'm sorry I was a dick.

((Warning- sadness and mentions of a car crash))

Hey Sam, I know it's like 4 in the morning and we haven't talked for a year but I had to get this off my chest now. Cas is asleep, Dean's asleep, the whole world's asleep and I'm sitting here at ass o'clock in the morning with tears running down my face. Life's been hell since you went off to college, Sam, it really has. I'm sorry I was such a dick in highschool. I just fell so fucking fast for you I had no clue what to do but try to make it stop. It didnt. It hasn't, really. We all graduated and you still thought I was the flirty dick who did nothing but eat candy and laugh. Yeah, kinda wish that was true now. When I found out you were going to Standford it made sense. You're smart. Smarter than I'll ever be. I fell for you what, eight years ago and now I can only tell you once it's a year too late for you to do anything. I swear, Sam, the moment I saw you and Dean getting in that stupid impala to drive there the whole world lost color. Still, Cas and Dean hugged and kissed and said they'd see eachother in a couple days before driving off. Cas didn't really know until a year sgo, either, so don't feel too bad. Hell, what am I saying. Anyways, I thought about texting you this the first day you were gone. And the second. You got through half a semester there without a word from either of us, huh? Guess you really didn't notice my feelings then. You always said I was a great actor, sarcasm or not. Man, if you could see my smiling through the day now. But really, half a semester, how was I supposed to know I had a limited time to confess to you? To tell you seven years of feelings? I texted you once, this corny joke that you didnt get at first, but I shyed out pretty quickly. Fuck, and by the time i knew it was too late. Dean barely made it down there in time to say goodbye. I'm sorry I was such a dick to you in highschool, I'm sorry I couldn't make it down there in time to even say goodbye. I brought flowers to your funeral, if that makes it a bit better. That truck driver got arrested too. Cas and Dean are engaged now. I got a new dog to play with Honey, I was gunna name it Sam but that hurt too much so I named it Sour. 'Cause you loved those stupid sour candies that fried your tongue. Guess it's time for me to sleep now, huh? I'm sorry Sam. For... everything. Please dont be in my dreams again, everything already hurts right now. GN

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((I'm sorry. I stayed up until 4 reading fanfictions and this came in my head when I was finally trying to sleep. Uh, anyone have any happy suggestions?))