Love in Mysterious Way

What Now???

WHAT NOW?

Now is Friday, I don't have class but Quinn needs to go to school. I shake her arm to wake her... she moves a little... "Morning sleepy head" I said and kissed her forehead. She didn't say a word and bow her head. I lift it up and smile. "You have school today..." "Can I just skip school today? It's Friday and I don't want to go home...." She said in tears... "Ok... tell me what happen?" she nods her head. "Get up now and we'll have breakfast...." I kissed her again and I get up... I prepare pancakes and egg for breakfast.... After we ate, I noticed Quinn wasn't saying any words, nor eating her food. "Quinn.... Please eat," she nods her head but keeps on playing with her plate. I got up on my chair and I sat next to her. I get the spoon in her hand I feed her. It never gets awkward. I know she had eating disorder and I'm helping her to recover... after she ate almost half of it. She quickly got up and run to fast to the sink... I hold her hair and rub her back to make her feel better... later on her knees weaken and drop herself at the floor... "Are you okay..." I asked. "Y-yeah... I s-sorry..." she said in between sob. I pick her up and carry her to the living room. "Did you eat last night?" "n-no..." "Tell me what happen Quinn..." she stays quit and tears starts falling in her cheeks.

QUINN'S

I need to let this out... Karren hugs me... I stayed silent; I don't know where to start. I don't know what to say... "Dont keep it to your self... you will never feel better by keeping it to your self..." I nod. "Tell me when you're ready Hun..." she said... she then kissed the top of my head. "Go fix your self. "b-but... I didn't bring clothes..." "I had some clothes that cud fit to you..." after I got dressed I remember that I had the enveloped and the cards with me... I grab my bag and read the card....

Dear Quinn,

Merry Christmas, baby girl.

We were all here today – all of us but you. But you know well, I think, that you were in our hearts and thoughts, loved and cherished. Your name was spoken. You was remembered. Your family loves you and misses you.

I love you. I miss you.

My love, my own. I dreamt such dreams of you while you lay curled inside me. The laughter and sunshine you would bring to us this holy day

Good night, sweet girl. I cry for you, I laugh for you. You are in my smile and in my tears. Every moment of this day, I have carried you with me, wishing that I could hold you, sing to you, and love you. I choose now to do this last, to love you forever, to love you beyond time and existence. My daughter, my light.

Merry Christmas, baby girl. We love you. I love you.

Always.

I sat on the floor... knees on my chest. Thinking whether to read more or not. Then I hear Karren. "Are you done?" she asked... "Yeah... just..." "Can I come in?" she said....then the door open. She saw me and hug me tight like always... "I... I was reading some cards from my mom...." "You got card this early?" she said smiling not knowing anything. I pass her some card and she read it.... she then hugs me and said. "I'm sorry Hun... I didn't know." She noticed my tears and wiped it.

/////time pass//// 5 years after.

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