Love in Mysterious Way

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QUINN

Yesterday? Yesterday was frightful... well not really.... I don't know, but my aunt manage to hand me a message that I tried to hide from demi and Karen; yeahh.. yeahh.. I know I should of give it to them, and now? I'm reading it again. Again... and again... and again.... To why? I don't know.

Karen was in the leaving room. I stayed here not wanting to go anywhere; I don't even want to do anything. I stayed in bed, curled in a ball position, im not crying okay... a minute later I decided to get up and grab my laptop. i wanted to clear up my mind. So I went to youtube, and browse I tried to see if there's something new in Barbie's. but to my luck, I have seen it already. What caught my attention was something 'bout demi. it says that demi was seen with a guy named wilmer, and they assumed that they are back together. I feel like betrayed, I know I shouldn't feel it because wee are not a thing. But why does it hurt? Why do I feel it? and why me? I only want to be happy. I only want to be loved. Why is it so hard for me to be happy? Why every body wants to play with my emotion? Do I not deserve? Am I not allowed to be happy? Now tell me... what loved is? How can you say you loved someone? How will you know if that someone loved you back? There where many questions that I wanted to be answered. One of it was, WHY DID MY AUNT SAID I WAS A MISTAKE. THAT I BETTER OFF DEAD. THAT IF NOT BECAUSE OF ME, MY DAD WAS STILL ALIVE. How can I say that things? Because it was what the letter said.

Demi... demi lied. She lied, she said she'll wait until im ready; and what now? She has a boyfriend. Of course she'll want guy compares to me. but it doesn't mean that she can play with me. I cant trust her. I cant trust anyone now.

I didn't know I was crying until I heard someone knocks outside. I managed to wipe out my tears, before that someone sees me. "how you feeling hun...." That was Karen, I quickly turns my laptop off, and walk back to bed. I saw Karen with a tray of food in her hands. I didn't say any words, and she knows me so well; that before I could lie back in bed she said. "you didn't eat anything since last night... you have to eat dinner this time." "im not hungry" I said "please... for me?" I didn't answer her, "for your mom?" "as if she cares..." I mumbled. I know she hears me. "Quinn... you know she does" "im tired." I got up in bed and walk past her. "ill be in my room." I said referring to own room at the third floor. After that? I cried myself to sleep. I know I hurt her. I know she loved me... but someone inside me was telling that they are lying. That they just acted like they cared. That my aunt was right; I better of dead. Someone inside me that Karen was tired of me.

KAREN

I was in the kitchen preparing dinner for Quinn when demi came. she said she went to check kyla first, I asked her to come upstairs after she finished dinner. When I got in, I saw Quinn wiping out tears, and quickly turned her laptop. I ignored it knowing that Quinn will talk to me. I know she will. She don't want to eat, I was worried at her, I heard her saying "as if she cared" when I asked her to eat for her mom. there must be something that runs in her mined. I know something happened that involves on her laptop. it's what ive seen earlier. I went to check it. i didn't see anything for her to say something about her mom. the only thing I could think was the news about demi. "Karen?" demi calls out. "sorry... didn't notice you coming in" where's Quinn?" she asked. "in her room. She didn't eat again" "let me try.." she offered. "What really happen yesterday?" I asked her. "when I saw her, she was already crying, why?" "I asked her to eat for her mom, she mumbled something... shes acting different" she picks up the tray and asked where Quinn's room was.

DEMI

i knocked in Quinn's room. But shes not answering so I tried to open it. good thing she didn't lock it. I saw her sleeping, I shook her shoulder, and she slightly opens her eyes. I smiled at her but she turned her back.. "Karen said you didn't eat since last night." I started. "im not hungry" "I know... that's what she told me..." "then you can leave now." "I will.. if you eaat something." "I told you im not hungry" "as I said... im not leaving you until you finished this." She got up and faces me. "I don't want to play with you demi." she said without emotion. "who said we're playing? Karen was in her room, crying; not knowing what else to do. She was worried sick thinking what have happen yesterday..." "I told you im not hungry... now leave...." Quinn said pointing her door. "no Quinn... im not leaving this room until you eat. Stop acting like a child looses her puppy. Everyone was worried at you, cant you see that? Cant you see that we are affected on your actions? Cant you see that we cared so much,? Cant you see how worry I am?" "stop acting like you cared demi..." she said getting up. She went to near the window and continues. "im sick of playing with you all. Im tired of those lies. For god sake; im not 5, im not 10... you just cant say you care so much. You just cant say you love me. for me to feel like I was. you just cant say you want me happy so I can think to my self that I am loved, that im happy... why don't you just tell me the truth? Why do you need to say many lies to make me feel good?" she was throwing things and Karen was now here and she hears every word, "you all are liers... you all are just playing with me... and I was a fool to believe you. I trusted you, I did everything I can to make you happy. To make you all proud at me. i thought I could trust you demi. I thought being with mom and Karen was enough for me to be happy... but you all lied to me.." when she turns her back to me she saw Karen, she was crying too. "I thought you said you love me..." she continues as she was slowly dropping herself at the floor. Karen runs to her side. "I did believe you... I thought you love me..." Quinn said. Karen was rocking her back and forth to calm her down. "Quinn... I wasn't lying to you... I love you like my own." Karen said. "no... no... no your lying. That's not true... your lying..." Quinn said, covering her ears not wanting to hear anything. theres something on her actions.. i know she's bipolar. That action, I know that exactly.... I just have to see her eyes. "Quinn... please... calm down babe..." Karen said. Quinn still refuses her. "don't listen to them Quinn... fight them. you can do it... please. Listen to me..." Karen said. Quinn murmured something I don't hear, but I know for sure, she wanted them to shut up. She had it too... I went to her side and lift her head up, "Quinn... focused. Do not listen to them; they're no good to you..." "No... no.. They're right... you lied to me... you all lied... leave me alone.." Quinn said pushing me away from her. I hug her tight as I can.

I love the way it feels when you touch my hands...

Don't want to let you go

I love the way you say that I am your man

Don't understand why

We can't go on, and go on

Don't understand why

You don't belong in my arms

And even if i cry thousands tears tonight

Would you come back to me

And even if I walk on the water,

Would you come out to see?

Now I can't spend my life standing by

Cause even when I miss you, your still not missing me...

Karen started singing... and it calmed her down and get her to sleep. I didn't know she can sing.. we bring Quinn to karens room.. "I didn't know you can sing." I said "that was the only song that calmed her." "you mean?" "she's not just bipolar demi." Karen said putting Quinn down in bed.. "I manage to help her recover with her eating disorder. Sometimes she thinks she's crazy talking with mind. I said its an mental illness, where your anxiety aroused. And she understand it too well" "is she into self harm? I mean just to stop her demons..." I said looking down... I know its not right to asked her that question but I wanted to know. "Almost... but I caught on time to stop her... she told me that it's the right thing to do, because she was unwanted." She told me everything about Quinn... until kyla came in,

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