Stuck In Love

What's crying?

Andrea's P.O.V

Five days later after all the texting and crying i was some what stable. I still cried here and there for being such an idiot and rejecting his love towards me. And i know i make no sence and i get it if you think im crazy but, i really dont want to get hurt again.

I had told Sandra everything that had happened and she simply supported my decision, and that's why she's my best friend.

"You wanna go grab something to eat?",  i heard Sandra call out.

I stayed quiet remembering our conversation so clearly. I was so madly in love with that kid and i still managed to deny him. How could i??? What was wrong with me????

"Sandra, you think i did the right decision?"

"Huh?", she said walking out my room surprised.

"Kian?"

"Babe, you did what you think was right", she let out.

"I know, but was it the right decision?", i insisted.

"Andrea maybe you did maybe you didnt but he's gone now. He's in like....i dont know but..."

"He's in Houston...", i interrupted her.

"You're keeping up with him??"

"No..well i have Jc and Dom on snapchat and well every where else and i saw it....", i confessed.

"C'mon we gotta get you out."

"No, wait Sandra....i need you to tell me what you would have done."

"Andrea, its not about me....plus this was like 5 days ago babe c'mon..."

"I did wrong....", i started, "im such an idiot."

"C'mon lets go!", she said this time pulling me up.

After we ate i managed to let Sandra let me go back to my apartment.

As i entered i closed the door behind me and tears rolled down my cheek without letting me process what was going on. This was it....i had officially lost him. There was never ever going to be an us again.

I slowly made my way to my bedroom and jumped under my covers. I was such an idiot. But then again what made me think he wasn't going to f**k around while on tour. For all i knew he could be f**king somebody at this very moment while i cry my eyes out. So instead of continuing to cry i got up and headed to the restroom to take a bath.

Once i finished i put on a oversize t-shirt that looked like a dress and my high knee boots and texted Sandra saying, 'get ready we're going out'.

Her response reminded me again why she was my best friend.

Soon she arrived and we were off to crash a party. Most of my friend threw parties almost every weekend so finding a party wasn't the problem.

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It was now Sunday and both me and Sandra were completely hanged over. Last night i had forgotten completely about EVERYTHING! And by everything i mean KIAN!

"Morning", i call out walking towards the restroom.

"You sure did wake up yesterday? Huh?"

"What?", i laugh knowing exactly what she was talking about.

"You're crying one minute and the next you're dancing your ass off", she laughed.

"Crying? What's crying?", i join her in her laughter.

"Whatever....so what's happening tonight. I won't let you sit here all day alone so you can go back into your little mood swings."

"I don't know. i kind of just want to chill here...", i say getting on to snapchat.