Stuck In Love

Biggest Mistake Of My Life

Kian's P.O.V

After speaking with Andrea i felt like an idiot. I literally confessed my love to her and she literally blew me off. But i guess she was practically right, i had hurt her before.

I drove to the apartment and went straight to my room to finish packing. It was pretty late and tomorrow we had the L.A show.

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It was now 10 am and we were all just getting ready for thenight... and well the following places we would be heading. Our first show was here in L.A and then we would be heading to San Diego. I was really excited for this tour to get going but what i wasnt excited was for the part that i would have SO MUCH FREE TIME in between cities to think about her...Andrea, the girl who fucken owns my heart and the same girl who rejected me.

But also i would have time to hang out with my friends...not that i didnt live with one of them already.

"Hey, where'd you go last night?", Jc asked me slapping the back of my head.

"Oh no where...just somewhere i could get rejected..."

"No way...no fucking way", Jc nearly screamed. "You went over to Andrea's and she rejected you?"

"Yup", i said popping the 'p'.

"What the fuck why? I thought she still liked you?", he asked surprise.

"Thought so too", i replied.

"What the fuckkkk", Jc said shocked.

"Its whatever...", i say sitting down.

"Yo yo yo", Dom arrived with one of his friend, which i believe was David.

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It was finally getting close to the show to start and honestly i was kind of not really feeling it. I mean how could you possibly feel like giving your all to a show full of fans when the #1 fan you wished to have completely destroyed and shattered my heart.

Couple of minutes before it started i nearly almost ran out to the tour bus, but i knew that was not the right decision. I had to do this. Atleast for all those fans out there who were waiting for me. For those who keep me going.

5...4...3...2...1

"LETSSSS GOOOO", Jc yelled running out to the stage were all the fans screamed, yelled and cried.

It was so crowed, so amazing how all these girl were here to see us and only us. I was so grateful for them, for Jc, and all those who believed in us.

Dom started to put the crowd more pumped than they were already with the music he was playing while the rest of the guys jumped up and down to the rhythm.

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"Woahhhh!!!", i yelled running backstage.

That was amazing!!! It was just the first one, not counting the International shows, and it was perfect.

"You guys rocked that!!!", everybody said something along those lines.

Next up was San Diego. I couldnt believe this was just the start and i already loved it. We all got in the tour bus and headed down to San Diego.

I put on my earphones and wondered off into social media. Just like usual i ended up somewhere i would totally regret.

She was just so beautiful. So amazing. So lovable. So stunning. So perfect.

But sadly i had hurted her way to much for her to simply forget about it. I just dont understand why she would let this oppurtunity go when im totally 100% sure she still loves me the same way i do. But then again i had left her on hold last tour and i was literally touring again this time around.

I was so close into texting her once again and simply asking her to just talk to me. I really wanted to hear her voice. I just wanted to assure myself that one day we could possibly be together. And so i did.

To: Andrea
Hey...

For some reason i was always the one texting first...i guess it was my job to do it.

Bzz bzz

-Andrea
Whats up...

I knew this was totally akward for her or atleast for me. We had just seen each other and she had totally just denied me and here i was texting her like an idiot.

-Can you talk...or simply text me? Kinda want to fix unsolved problems...

How in the world was i finding courage to actually be sending this???

-Andrea
Sure, i mean it would have been better in person but i guess this is okay...

What is she even talking about? I had literally gone to ger apartment to speak to her and she denied me!!

-I know, but i really want to fix things between us.. hate the fact that we cant even speak to each other. Andrea i was honest when i told yoy what i told you. I just need you to believe me and i promise everything will be okay

Gosh, im so in love!!

-Andrea
Kian, how do you expect US to work out when you're on tour once again. We both know what could happen while you are on tour and im not ready to get hurt again. I love you too, but i just cant let myself get fooled again. When the time is right i promise we will both know and we will finally be able to be together💔 but as of now i need to protect myself emotionally. Have fun and enjoy your tour days. Love you😢❤

Woahhh!!!! I did not expect that at all, but atleast i knew her feelings for me were the same as mine and that made me happy.

-Im sorry for everything i made you go through but baby i love you too and i promise you i wont hurt you again. I understand what you are telling me and i respect your decision but it hurts me...i really wished we could get past our past and be together but ill fight for you baby and ill wait for you. I love you too💕😚

And there's me being totally romantic with her even though romantic is no where near my personality, but then again Andrea takes everything out of me. I was really in love with that girl and she just managed not see it. But i will always love her...always. She's my dream girl, the one and only my heart and mind wanted.

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Just wanted to say that for those who know all the drama that happened during tour it will make an appearance here as well lol.

Anyways make sure to check out my other stories and leave me some comments here as well.

Love,
Daisyyy🌼