Beautiful Lie (A Shannon Leto Fanfiction)

Chapter XIX Past and Future

 It hurt to see Shannon and it hurt more that he thought I moved on so fast. I haven't even tried to move on I don't think I could if I wanted to. Logan drove me home and I apologized for not staying with him for the bonfire. I knew he was upset by it but he understood why I didn't want to go. Instead I locked myself in my room and cried. After Nicole got back she made me get up and take a shower and after that I went to bed. It's been three days since then and I haven't went out once. The other day Jared came over and he is the one who told me that Shannon had been moping around. I wouldn't be surprised if Shannon went home that day after what I said to him on the beach and got mad at Jared for telling me the truth. I hear a knock on my bedroom door then Jared walks in.

"Shannon told me what happened" he says

"Ya, did he tell you the truth though" I say and roll my eyes

"Yes, Katherine I know you probably don't want to hear it but he is really sorry" he says

"I know he is" I say softly

"Then why don't you talk to him" he asks

"Because if he is sorry he needs to tell me he kicked me out not the other way around" I say

"Well that's true" he says

I nod and look away from him.

"Come on let me take you out. You shouldn't be locking yourself in your room" he says

"I don't want to go out" I say

"I know so come on" he says

"You make no sense sometimes" I say and he smiles

He nods and helps me up. He leaves the room and I get dressed in some semi nice clothes. I walk into the living room and see him waiting on me.

"I'm glad to see you are going out" Nicole says with a kind smile

I smile to her and Jared and I leave. We get in the car and Jared starts driving.

"So where are we going" I ask

"To celebrate" he says with a smile

"Celebrate what" I ask

"The show you had, we need to celebrate it" he says

"What no, we don't need to do that" I say

"Well we are already driving. So where are we going" he asks

"I don't know Jared. I honestly have no idea" I say sweetly

"Alright then, let's go shopping. We can go to the mall, get some new clothes maybe some lunch. Then we can go from there" he says

"Since I know there is no way I can change your mind sure that sounds great" I say and smile

"If you would like to do something else we can" he says

"No it's ok. Thanks for doing this though" I say

"Don't worry about it" he says with a smile

We continue driving until we get to the mall. We go in and get something to drink then walk around. We look around in different stores and I see a dress that I really like in a store window.

"Why don't you get it" Jared asks

I shake my head no and he smiles. He pulls me into the store and finds that dress in my size then hands it to me.

"Try it on" he says

I roll my eyes but don't argue. I try it on and was amazed. It was a beautiful dress. I walked out of the dressing room and showed Jared the dress he just smiled.

"I think you should get it" he says

"I have no reason to. I don't know when i'd ever wear it" I say

"Go get changed" he says with a smile

I get changed and walk out of the dressing room with the dress. Jared takes the dress from me and pays for it before I can say anything. I roll my eyes but smile. He hands me the bag that the dress was in and we walked out.

"Before you say anything about me buying you that dress I just want to say that it's my money I can spend it how I please" he says with a smile

"Thank you Jared, I honestly do love the dress" I say and smile back

"Would you like to come have dinner at the beach house tonight" he asks

"I don't think that would be the best idea. Shannon and I don't even talk I don't think see each other would be a good idea" I say

"Shannon is going out tonight as he does every night for the past several weeks here lately he hasn't been back for dinner. He doesn't get home until after we are in bed" he says

"Well then yes id love too" I say and he nods

He adds a small smile but I could tell that he only did that to hide his true emotion, pain.

"You worry about him a lot don't you" I ask

"The last time I saw Shannon like this was when we were teens. Before we moved out here. He would go out without us knowing and wouldn't come home until really late. He was in a bad place then. I'm worried he is starting to fall back into that same rut he was in" Jared says sadly

"I'm sorry Jared" I say and frown

"Don't apologize it's not your fault" he says

"Yes it kinda is, I'm what pushed him back into this dark place of his" I say

"Shannon made his own choice" Jared says

We pulled into the driveway of the beach house and went inside. Constance met us at the door and hugged me. Soon she served dinner.

"Wait Constance I thought you guys were vegetarian and vegan this has meat in it" I say confused

"Only yours has chicken in it, I know you're not vegan or vegetarian" she says with a warm smile

"Oh well thank you"

We eat our food talking about different things. Right after we finish dinner we hear a knock on the door. Jared answers it leaving Constance and I in the kitchen.

"Are you Jared Leto" a man asks

"Yes that's me" Jared answers

"Well sir your brother is in my back seat. He called for a taxi and so I picked him up but then he started drinking. If it wasn't for the fact he had already paid me to bring him here I would have left him on a curb somewhere" the taxi guy says

I heard a car door close shortly after and then the front door. From the kitchen we could hear Jared some what carry Shannon to the couch.

"He is drunk again" Jared says entering the kitchen area

"I think I better go before I cause problems. Do you guys need any help before I do go" I ask

"No honey not at all. I'm glad you came. Jared please drive her home if you would" Constance says

Jared nods and then he drives me home. The whole ride I kept thinking about Shannon. I saw him on the couch before we left he looked awful. I felt bad for him honestly. I felt like I was the cause of him being like that. Even after what Jared had said to me I still felt like I was the one who pushed him to make that decision.

After Jared dropped me off at home I took a shower and now I'm laying in bed thinking about Shannon. Thinking about what Jared told me about Shannon's past. How hurt he must be to turn back to that. And also how sorry I was for hurting Shannon the way I did. I shouldn't have left like that and honestly I'm starting to believe I shouldn't have ever walked out that door when he said he wanted me to leave. The one thing I knew for certain was that I couldn't change what I did but I can change what I'm going to do.