Let's Not Regret | Levi x Reader

Chapter 3

I wish I knew how many days has it been. I don't know how long will these punks keep doing this. They've only given us a piece of bread. I think that happened a day ago. My head hurts so bad and I feel like sleeping. But they don't give us time. That's why I'm not sure how much time we've been here. 

- Where are does papers?! -The guy that swaped with Kenny some time ago asks the woman.

- I don't know! -She yells at him.- I don't know what business my husband had with you! -She yells once more then she gets slaped. 

- Girl. Tell me what you survey corps planing with that old man. -He demands me and I look at him with a smile.

- You know my answer idiot! -I yell at him and he hits me and after that they dipped my head in a bucket of water. 

I was there for a while and I felt I was fading away little by little. I just hope I die soon. It's not like I'm necessary. While my head was in the bucket I went back a few days. I remembered Jean worried about me, and Eren's face when he was better. I remembered all of them. Sasha when she woke me up to make breakfast. Mikasa throwing that boot at my face. Historias concerned face. Connie saying I had a crush on captain. Captain. 

"Stop liking me. It's an order. Because it bothers me."

I couldn't take it no more. But I'm a soldier. I have to bear this. I have to.

- Not so tough after all. -That guy says when my head is taken out of the bucket and I start to cough feeling my eyes red.

I was having truble breathing. And just when I was getting air, they dipped my head once again. This time I'm sure I'll pass out. I didn't have much air in my lungs and my mind was getting fuzzy. I was then brought out of the bucket again, but this time I saw another person. I saw captain infront of me. His cold eyes showed a bit of worry and all I could do is smile. I was happy to see him. 

- What you smiling about? - He asked me then he hit me hard in the face.- You stupid girl. -He says and I then realize that I had an hallucination. 

It was the same guy all along. I can't follow captains order. I can't stop liking him even if it bothers him. I may die or they might kill me now, and I want him as my last thought.

- Tell me about the plan. -He orders me.

- I won't tell you. -I say and this time he takes out a knife.

-Are you sure you don't wanna tell me? -He says then he placed the knife on my cheek.

- I'm sure. -I answered without hesitation.

He then pressed the knife on my cheek and slowly takes it down. I know if I survive this, what he is doing will be a scar forever.

- You bastards! -Someone yells while entering the room.

My vision was getting fuzzy and I started seeing everything in slow motion. I think I'm finally at my limit and even if my face was burning because of the cut, I really wanted to sleep.

Someone then untied me. The person tryed helping me stand but I couldn't feel my arms or legs, after all, I was tied up for a long time. I was on the floor, unable to move on my own, trying to remember why I was there.

After that I feel two arms carry me to the cart. And I also felt something on my cheek. A hand pressing on the cut that man made on my face. Then I finally got some sleep. One of the things I most wanted.

I suddenly open my eyes. How long have I been sleeping? Not sure but I felt so well rested. I then sit on the same bed and then I touch my face. I could feel how abnormal my skin was for the cut. I won't be the same as before thanks to that bastard.