What You Wish For

>|chapter four|<

After we kissed that afternoon for the first time, I couldn't get enough of Caleb.

It was like he was good for me. Yet he was bad at the same time. He challenged me and made me question myself.

That's what a relationship is supposed to be.
It's supposed to make you feel giddy inside. When you see him your supposed to get butterflies.

That's how I knew I loved Caleb.

He made me crazy. He made me better than I ever thought possible. I love him. A lot.

After our first date we started hanging out a lot. It was still hot in North Carolina so he took me to the beach most days. I loved laying on the beach with him.

That's the difference between Caleb and Nathan.

Nathan only wanted sex and attention.
Caleb liked to talk to me. He wants to know all the thinks I like and dislike. But he also kisses by the book.

It's amazing. Every time his lips connect with mine i feel powerless. He controls me. He owns me.

He just doesn't know it quite yet.

I went to the basketball game tonight. If I forgot to mention, Caleb is a great basketball player. He only got here this year and he's already taken a starting position. Normally the team would despise one who came and took their position, but no one can despise Caleb. That's how truly great he is.

Anyways, Caleb had the leading number of points scored tonight. They won the game.

But the best part was after the game. When Caleb came up to hug me all shiny and glossy with sweat. Although he didn't smell the greatest, his hug sent sparks through me.

We've officially been "dating" or whatever we are for 4 weeks.

The past 4 weeks have been chaotic and crazy.

I've never felt so alive.