Chain of Events (Magi!Solomon & Sheba)

IX:Thoughts In General

A/N: Ok, I usually don't start with author notes, but I thought you should know that this story will have arcs, the first 8 chapters were the prologue, this arc is the Sheba arc. This arc will be 3 chapters or so. Or it might be more, depending on what I think I need to explain.I thought I'd warn you all first. On with the story!:)
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Sheba's P.O.V.

I'm nervous, really nervous.

And scared. Okay, I'm terrified.

After saying goodbye to Ugo at the airport,I felt like jumping off this plane.

I was going to Laem since it has the least contact with Solomon, and none of them would ever suspect me there. Actually, I'm sure they'd never even suspect me leaving for another country.

My friend Momo lives there, and although I hate to have to burden him (A/N: Momo is a girl, right?Edit: XD sorry, I researched he's not a girl), he'd probably find me the minute I step foot on Laem.

My thoughts are all jumbled up now, I'm very scared, terrified, nervous. I looked down at my growing baby bump and gently touched it, smiling when I felt, well, I just think, a warm sensation.

I patted my stomach gently, ignoring my nervousness. When Ugo asked if I want to get rid of him, of course I immediately said no, this child was not at fault for my carelessness. I was the one who did stupidly, I have no right to blame him and take his life when he hasn't even seen the world yet.

I've decided to call him Aladdin, I was ecstastic when I found out I was pregnant, happy to be the lucky girl he loved so much that he gave me a child.

But now, all I feel is bittersweet dread and hollow anger. I said that I didn't want Solomon dragged into this mess, because the truth is, I want him to suffer, to make him pay for leaving me. But I knew that it was just jealousy and revenge rearing their heads towards me, wanting me to give into hate and destroy.

I cannot do that, although a part of me wants Solomon to be mine, he will never be, because he was always hers. Ah, yes, I didn't know I smiled bittersweetly unconsciously.

I knew that he looked at me with a gaze, but it wasn't love, it was confusion. He loved me, but not in that way. I could tell when he saw and talked with Arba, he would give her a warm gaze that was very different from the one he gives me. He saw me as a child. But he saw her as a woman. He saw her as a possible lover. He saw me as someone he was confused on.

But there was no reason to be confused, it was as clear as day. Or maybe, I was the only one who saw it. He doesn't know that I can read him like a book, his eyes always show his feelings. But, I kept holding on anyway, desperately gripping the heart that wasn't mine to catch in the first place.

He never loved me. He loved her.

I always knew, even before we dated. I broke my promise with Arba to marry him, I feel guilty. Though, I'm not too sad, she looked so happy when Solomon asked her out. I can't blame her, any girl would be lucky to have Solomon as their lover.

But right now, I have another agenda. One that doesn't involve Solomon, or anyone else. I closed my eyes and thought,

'Aladdin, I hope you can forgive me for already being a terrible mother. I want to raise you with love and happiness, I want you to be happy.'

I felt a small nudge, not huge since he hasn't developed legs yet, the nudge wasn't even barely felt. I smiled.

Yes, right now, I have to be positive. I will never get over Solomon, that much is fact. But I have someone I should take care of, someone that I love. And I know that, I may be sad and brooding now, but with Aladdin with me, I know I'll be fine.

Nothing can deter a mother's love, after all.

It'll take years but it'll heal. I'm sure of it.

---We have now arrived at the Laem Empire. Please take care to bring you personal belongings with you on your way out. Goodbye, and thank you for choosing to ride with Rukh Airlines---