Save Me A Spark ~~Kellic mPreg~~

~~Ten~~

~~Four Months Later~~
~~Vic's POV~~

Kellin still hasn't talked to me, and it's been four months. I have tried to get him to talk to me, but he just keeps ignoring me. Every night, I cut before I cry myself to sleep. I haven't told Kellin that I've been cutting this whole time, but I really don't want him to know. Two months ago, I had to take him to get an ultrasound done, but he still didn't talk to me on the way there, or on the way back. I had tried to talk to him then, but he just turned up the radio.

Jack had told me that I should apologize to Kellin, and I told him that I had tried that. He then suggested that I propose to him, but I told him that Kellin and I weren't even dating anymore after what happened. He couldn't think about anything for me to do after that, and that made me even more depressed than I already was.

Every night when I would get home, I would find Kellin either eating dinner or watching TV, sometimes, I would also find him passed out on the couch. It made me even sadder that he wouldn't ever talk to me, let alone look at me. I was starting to feel suicidal, and I knew that I had to tell Kellin, or Mike and Tony. They had kind of been talking to me, but at the same time, they had been ignoring me just like Kellin has been.

Right now, I was sitting on the bathroom floor ready to cut again, but before I could, I got up and left the bathroom before going to Kellin's room. I knocked and got no response. I opened the door and found that Kellin was just sitting on his bed on his laptop. He looked up at me before he rolled his eyes before going back to what he was doing on the computer.

"Kellin please, I need you."

"Leave me alone Vic."

"Kellin please."

"Vic...."

"I've been self-harming Kellin, please."

"What?" He asked looking up at me.

"I've been self-harming Kellin, I was about to end it, but I came to talk to you instead, please talk to me."

"Vic...."

"Kellin, I'm really sorry, I should've told you, but I didn't, and I feel like an ass for not telling you. I regret not telling you what I did. I feel like a fucking idiot for not telling you." I said as I looked away from him. "I don't expect you to forgive me Kellin, but please, please, talk to me again, I can't handle not talking to you."

"Vic...."

"Kellin, I miss your smile, your hugs, your laugh, your giggle, but most importantly, I miss you. I miss everything about you Kellin, and I fucked it up by keeping a secret from you. I can't.....I can't Kellin, I just can't...."

"Can't what Vic?" I looked up at him with tears in my eyes.

"I can't live without you, I am really sorry for what I did."

"Vic...."

"I'll leave now, I just had to tell you that." I said before I left the room and ran up the stairs and to my room. I had slammed my door shut before I climbed into bed, covered myself with my blanket and began crying. I didn't even hear my door open, but I did feel the blanket being pulled off of me. I looked up at who it was and saw that it was Kellin.

"Vic.....I forgive you."

"Wh-why?"

"Because even though you should've told me, I still love you." Kellin said as he moved my hair out of my face. "I'm sorry for ignoring you for so long Vic, I shouldn't have, now please stop crying."

I didn't stop crying though. I had heard Kellin sigh before he began running his fingers through my hair. I slowly calmed down after that. When I had stopped crying, I just laid on my back as I looked up at Kellin. He had pulled his hand away, but before he put it in his lap, I grabbed it and held it.

"I'm so sorry Kellin."

"So am I Vic, so am I."

"Hey Kellin?"

"Yeah."

"I still love you too." He smiled.

"What does this make us though Vic, I ended what we were."

"Kellin.....will you be my boyfriend again?" I asked hopefully.

"I would love that." I smiled before I sat up and looked down at his hands. I was confused when I saw the ring that was on his finger.

"You kept this on?" I asked looking at him while I played with the ring.

"Why wouldn't I?"

"Because I thought you hated me."

"I did hate you Vic, but it was the only thing that I had from you that would make me smile."

"Same honestly."

"I'm still really sorry that I ignored you Vic."

"Don't be, you had every right to be, I kept a secret from you when I knew I shouldn't have."

"Yeah..."

"Kellin?"

"Yeah?"

"Can I kiss you?" He looked up at me before glancing down at my lips, then back up to my eyes.

"Please do." He said. I immediately grabbed his face in my hands carefully before I kissed him. He had gripped my shirt tightly when I did. We pulled away for air and just looked at each other. "I missed this."

"I missed you."

"Please don't keep anymore secrets from me please."

"I won't, I won't make that same mistake of not telling you secrets again."

"You better not." I just smiled before I kissed him again. He kissed back before he pulled away and gasped.

"Are you okay?" I asked worriedly.

"Yeah, I'm fine." He said as he let go of my shirt and grabbed my hand before he put it on his stomach. I was confused at what he was doing before I felt it. I felt the baby kick, and I just gasped as tears began filling my eyes as I looked at mine and Kellin's hands. I looked up at Kellin and smiled.

"Kellin..."

"That was the second time the baby had kicked, I had gasped the first time because of her."

"Her?" I asked confused. He just smiled, and then I realized. "We're having a baby girl, when did you find this out?"

"Yesterday, I had your mom take me to the ultrasound." I just smiled. "You're not saying anything, is that a good thing or a bad thing?"

"It's a good thing."

"Why?"

"Because I have you and our baby girl now."

"Vic?"

"Yeah?"

"Kiss me again, please."

"Like you have to ask." I said before I kissed him. We pulled away when someone cleared their throat. I looked at the door and saw that Mike and Tony were standing there. "Hey guys."

"You two finally make up?" Tony asked.

"Yeah..."

"Good."

"Why?"

"Because whenever you two were in the room, you could sense the tension, and it was thick enough to cut with a chainsaw." Mike said.

"Yeah, and so was the depression." Tony said.

"Anyway, you two good now?"

"Yeah, we're good." Kellin said as he looked at me. I looked at him with a smile before I kissed him. After that, we all went downstairs and got dinner. My mom had seen me and Kellin holding hands and she just smiled at us. After dinner, Kellin and I went to the guest room, packed his stuff up, and moved it all back up to my, our, room. We then fell asleep in each others arms, and I think we were both happy about that.