Complicated

I know he's trouble

(I'm standing on my fold knees on edge of his bed and he was standing close. few seconds before he was telling his stories but now silence was something killing both of us like we had something going in our heads. He was looking in my eyes and I was struggling with my racing heartbeats and as he knew he wrapped his arms around my waist and my lips parted as I saw his coming. My breaths get shorter and my arms raced to his shoulder to keep him tight against my bust I was wet down there and it's tickling there. He grabbed me tighter than before and now he is laying me down and coming over me. I felt his pressure between my thighs.)

she said to herself "behave Alicia" as she found herself in her own bed and nothing else except darkness. she checked her phone and it was 1:30 she cursed herself "what is wrong with you Alicia why you're being an ass, you know how Ryan is. It's better to keep things clear between you two, you may be attracted to him but you know he wants it casually and as you need him to get work in filming industry you have to 'have to' keep it clear." She remembered his offer of casual sex which she denied but still found herself wondering like that, "I know when it all started." said she.

'flashback'

I was on Facebook home page when I saw a notification that my old schoolmate Ryan Eastwood has got a job for a popular tv channel and I was amazed that he is going that good. it was great for me because I wanted to be in that firm but I was just a graduate with Philosophy major. I didn't remember when we had talked but at that moment I wanted to know everything from him about his job but we were never friends just known to each other.

Alicia: "happy birthday"

Ryan: "thanks a ton."

Alicia: "so what's the plan?"

Ryan: "nothing much"

"alone tv and lunch"

Alicia: "hahaha...ohhh what are you doing these days"

Ryan: "traveling back and forth to New York and Hollywood, for projects and shoots. You tell?"

Alicia: "ok good.... I'm preparing for govt. exams"

Ryan: "you're looking hot these days in your new uploads."

Alicia: "I thought I just posted some weird photos of me."

Ryan: "human to human eyes you know!!"

Alicia: "yeah!!"

Ryan: "How's life?"

Alicia: " thanks it's going good, what about you?"

Ryan: "I m doing fine... Working up with some tv series, Started my own business as well so, It's fine by now."

Alicia: "To be honest we are so humans, I texted you when I found you're working with well-known channel" (I don't know why I confessed him that but it was late to realize.)

while I was biting my nails in tension that what he would say after knowing my mean intention behind this whole conversation. He would never set me up in Hollywood.

Ryan: "well I text you when I found you hot, we are humans so, interest lies within."

Though I was relieved knowing his reaction but didn't know this would become that complicated for me. It was just his work profile that pulled my interest in him but it was just a beginning.

Ryan: "let's catch up someday."

Alicia: "yeah! sure I would love to"

Without reading my last text he went offline, leaving me with anxiety. I was excited and nervous at the same time. I counted on him but he was not coming any soon. I knew his job, I guessed "Must have got work." since then I started wondering myself working for tv and then writing and filming movies. I didn't realize how weeks passed and eventually when I almost forget about Ryan my phone beeped. I jumped up on my bed when I saw his notification_ Ryan: "hey! I'm back in New york as I'm free today can we meet at my place."

I was freaked and murmuring to myself "At his place? why not in any public place." before I could reply him he called me up "hey...! I was about to reply you." I tried to play nicely, "surely, hope it's fine asked you on such short notice." he said in a slow drowsy voice. I answer "that's totally fine, I've no plan for today but now I do." we both chuckled but in the back of my mind I was admiring the quality of his voice and the way he chuckles. he said again "will you?" I replied "ah..soorrry didn't hear that." he went again "just ring me before you get there, I need to look human before you come home." "Ohh yeah! of course" said I.

It hardly took 20 minutes of walking to reach the building of his apartment but before I entered I ringed him up "Hey! I'm about to encounter you" I said as he picked up my call. "I'm ready to be knocked out, girl!" he returned. and we hung up. I walked in the elevator with a very pleasant music on in it. I looked in the mirror my fitted jeans and a casual top complimenting my curves I decided to let my hair bun open and now my hair waves feeling glad to be free from that tight bun. while I was busy admiring myself elevator rang, that was me. I walked slower to his door. I took a deep breath and released it nervously as I was about to knock his door than I noticed the door bell and clicked it.

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