Never Got To Say Goodbye

Chapter 4

We walked a bit down the hall to a janitors closet and I walked in followed by Bryce.
"I guess I'm going first." He jumped a bit from how Mikey slammed the door shut behind him.
"Look Cem," he said,"I am really really sorry about what I said to you over our email. I never ment to hurt you."
"Really," I said a little pissed,"then why are these here." I said pulling up the sleeve of his sweatshirt that I still had on. From the look on his face I could definitely tell that he was sorry and he knew how close I was to death because of him and Mikey.
"Cem...I am so so sorry I didn't know I wish I didn't say it." He now had tears in his eyes, "I am so s-sorry." He said a little shaky.
"It's fine really...it just takes away the pain." I said.
"But it also makes it worse for others." He now had two tears that had fallen out of his sea blue eyes.
Knowing that this means that he still cares made me cry.
"I'm so sorry." I now said
We were both crying hard now...
"J-just p-please d-don't d-do it a-again. I don't want to lose you."

We pulled each other in to a long hug. "Thanks." I said, "for every thing."
"No problem" both of our eyes were a red pink color from crying.
He opened the door and said," I'm gonna go to lunch now."

Mikey looked at us both like we were aliens from outer space.
"Your gonnna wanna wash your face before you go." I suggested
"Yea good idea."
I went to take his sweatshirt off but Bryce stopped me.
"No keep it. It'll help, you never know how much it can hide until you show someone. Oh and I will be checking up on you, just please don't do it again I don't want to lose you..." He said and left.
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"What does that mean?" Mikey asked.
"You'll see." I said and wiped off the tear that accidentally fell as Bryce left.
"We should talk so that you can eat."
"Yeah," I say as I turn around and open the door again.
"Look Cem, I don't know what to say but I'm sorry. I so sorry I hurt you and I'm so so sorry I said those things to you. I wish I could take it all back, seriously, and I'm sorry I said no to you about us being together." He was about to say something more but I stopped him.
    "No, I get. I'm not enough. I can try to be a good friend but not a girlfriend. Not when you are the bad boy of this school and I'm just a nobody."
    "Stop it," he retorted as his hand reached to cup my face," I wouldn't want to hurt you if I did something wrong or say something wrong. I couldn't live with myself if I lost you because of my stupid self."
   "Your not stupid. Your amazing and I don't care what your past was. It doesn't define who you are now."
He stared at me for a second.
"I think I love you."
My heart stopped and then skipped a beat.
"What? Are you sure?"
He chuckled a bit,"come here."
  He cupped my face in his hands and kissed me. His lips taste like strawberries, and his hands slipped down to my lower back pulling me in impossibly closer. His cologne filled my nose and I wrapped my arms up around his neck. I started playing and tugging on his hair.
  He grunted a bit and whispered into my ear softly,"We should stop."
I blushed a bit (a lot) as I stepped away from him.
  He looked at me again with a smirk and  ran his fingers through his hair and as I was having a mini Anxiety attack in my head because I literally just made out with my crush. My head was like," What the Fuck just happened." My heart was beating out of my chest, and I bet you that my face was as red as a tomato.
After like five minutes of freaking out, I caught him looking at me and I peeked through my fingers that were covering my red face. I uncovered my face and we started laughing.
"We should go to lunch so you can eat."
"Ok." I knew that something bad was going to happen it always does.

  I walked out and started to walk down the hall by myself. I herd Mikey running up to me. I didn't realize I was half way down the hall and like 15 feet away from the Cafeteria. I also didn't realize that I was crying either. Mikey looked at me and then took my hand in his and we walked in the the cafeteria. I tried to get out of his grip because I knew he was going to get made fun of if his friends saw us.
  He wouldn't let go. So then he walked me to his table with hand in hand and we sat with his friends. He almost touched my thigh once or twice but I didn't mind. And at his table I could actually talk and not get made fun of like I did at Makenna's table ,"Oh there just joking." She would always tell me but even she knew she was lying.
  Mikey got held back twice so he is two years older than I am. That afternoon he asked to drive me home, but I told him after yesterday there was no such thing to me. Mikey asked what happened so I told him about Cory, about my cuts, about everything and I knew I started crying because he pulled me into a hug and rubbed my back in a soothing way.
He told me he was going to take me to my house. Oh no I thought now what?