I Need You

Over

Taehyung's POV:

Days passed by and I didn't enter Nikki's room, but I was always there. Jin hyung kept trying to tell Nikki what happened, but every time he mentioned it, she would change the topic or refuse to talk about it. 

One day, I'd had enough of it, and I barged into her room while Jimin was inside and they looked at me surprised. 

"You have to let me explain myself Nikki!" I said, in a rather loud tone. Jimin sensed the tension and left us to talk. "I don't want to hear an explanation of how you cheated on me Taehyung!" she yelled back.

"But just hear me out for one second.." I pleaded. "I don't want to Taehyung! I've lost all respect for you! I left everything and came here to strengthen our relationship, but little did I know that it had shattered even before I had come here!" She retorted, she was in tears now.

"Nikki please, just li-"

"You know what's even worse?! This just proves you never loved me! Because when you love someone you won't think about cheating on that person, the person you love! I can't believe you would do this to me Taehyung! I loved you, and I still do! And I hate myself for it, I just-"

And then she started getting short of breath, and started gasping for air. I started panicking, "Nikki!! What's wrong?!" I asked, frantically moving closer to her.

All the monitors started beeping very loudly, and I many nurses rushed inside and threw me out of the room.

The doctor ran in right after, and after around 15 minutes, he came back out. "She had a minor asthma attack. Did you say something that could've stressed her out by any chance? Please make sure you don't tell her anything that could stress her out, because that can only worsen her condition." He nodded and left.

Nikki got an asthma attack because of me, she got stressed out because of me. I didn't think I could hate myself so much. So that's it then, is everything over?

After a few days, before she got discharged, I went to see her. I didn't want to tell her anything that could cause her any stress, so I just decided to check up on her.

"Hey Pe- Hey...." I said as I entered. She gave me a faint smile, and nodded. "Just wanted to know how you were doing.." I said.

"I'm doing fine, I was just about to get discharged." She said. Finally, a decent conversation, things are turning out to be fine after all. I looked outside the window and saw that it had started snowing, the first snow. 

I smiled and nodded, "I'll wait outside then.." I said and started moving towards the door.

"Taehyung wait, I think we should... I think we should break up. If you like Jennie, then I'm not going to force you. But just promise me that you won't contact me. Otherwise it'll make everything much worse." She said.

I couldn't believe my ears. I felt myself choking up and I left the room before I started crying in front of her. 

So that's it then it's all over for good. I can't believe she just ended it like that. She didn't even bother to try and listen to what I had to say. 

I went back to my dorm, and broke the news to everyone. Jimin felt horrible, and apologized continuously, but I assured him that it wasn't his fault.

"It's not your fault Jimin-ie, if she doesn't trust me and is not even ready to come to a compromise, then I guess it just wasn't meant to be.. She's being so stubborn about everything. She said everything she had to say but didn't even try to listen to my side of the story. If this was the case then the relationship was bound to break anyway. And I-" I burst out crying.

The rest of the members hugged me tight, and I cried my heart out. I'm the last person who would cry this much, but I don't know. It honestly feels like a freaking dam broke in my eyes.

The next few days, all I did was eat junk, listen to sad songs and wear her pink scarf that I took from her all day long. I had such a hard time to process everything, that it was all really over.

But the more I thought about it, the more I resented her for what she did. She was so stubborn and didn't care about what I had to say. Such a silly misunderstanding, could've been avoided if she had a little trust in me, if she was ready to listen to me.

Fine then, if that's what she wants then fine. It's all really over.