Navy Love

3. Hate



There they are. The Ghost boys. I walk over to them holding my breath. "Hey Harley." Nick smiles. "Hello." I smile back.  "Hey girlie!" Aaron smiles. "Hello." I smile back.  "Hey Harley." Zak smiles at me. I look at him shocked. "Hello." I reply.  "Did you get your breakfast and lunch?" He asks me. "Oh yeah, Ivan brought it to me. Thank you."  "Did he give you my note?" He asks.  "He did thank you."  "Anytime." He smiles.  "Passing notes are we now?" Aaron smiles.  "I just told her eat lunch." Zak leaves out a few parts. "Do I get to eat dinner with everyone?" I ask him while he is in a good mood. "Yes."  "Sweet." I smile.  "Why? Did you take his offer?" Zak asks me.  "No, I'm eating with Ivan and his buddies."  "Ivan is a good guy." Zak nods his head.  "He is. He speaks Russian too." I smile proudly.  "I know, that's why I sent him." He smiles at me.  "Thought you could use a cheer up." Aaron pipes in. "Who's idea was that?" I smile.  "It was mine. I felt bad for being an ass." Zak says. "Zak's nice guy. Just not when in command." Nick tells me.  "Yeah we had a nice conversation earlier." I say.  "Earlier?" Nick and Aaron look at Zak confused.  "I went to the hospital wing. My chest is bleeding from a rash I have." Zak explains.  "Playing doctor were you?" Nick chuckles.  "Nah." Zak chuckles back.  "Lover boy." Aaron chuckles.  "Shut up." Zak punches his arm.  He likes me. "Alright let's fly." Zak smiles.  "Yeah!" I smile excitedly.  "Harley, your with me." Zak tells me. "Alright." I smile. He walks over to the jet.  The guys went to theirs. Zak then started laughing. "What's so funny?" I ask him kindly. "You."  "What about me?"  "Your so gullible. You honestly think I like you?" He tells me.  "Are you bipolar?" I ask him.  "No." he answered as he got in copilot. "I think you are. That or your two faced. One of the two." I tell him my theory. "I'm not bipolar." He tells me. "I think you are. Being nice to me sometimes then being a real asshole. You are usually rude then calm down to being nice as if your sorry. I don't think your sorry. I think your tired of being mad. But today you have been mostly nice to me. You put on a show when everyone is around. I will figure you out." I tell him.  "Ha good luck."  "I'm right aren't I?" I ask him.  "Not even close."  "I think I am." I put my helmet on. "Thank god." He sighs as he looks at me.  "What?"  "I can't see your hideous face." He tells me. I glare at him. "That's not what your not said. Love Zak." I push him. "Did you just lay your hands on me!?!" "Your in my space." I tell him.  "Your not going to dinner with Ivan." He tells me.  "So your going to starve me?" "Yes, you disrespectful no good, ugly, fat, weak , slut."  "No wonder your single. No women would be interested in your ass. You may be cute but that's all you are. Your going to die alone." I tell him.  He then was silent.  "You push everyone away from you. I'm glad you opened my eyes to your true character. You know it's true. That's why all the girls you dated left you. Your an ass! I don't know how anyone loves you. Your name is going to die out." I tell him.  He continued to be silent. I strap in and get ready to fly. "Zak, Harley do you copy?" Nick radios. Zak didn't answer. "Copy that." I tell him. Zak sat there starring at me. "What bitch?" I ask him.  "Don't speak to me like that. I am still your Chief." He tells me lowly. "Well stop treating me like trash! IM NOT A PIECE OF SHIT! YOU MAKE ME SO MAD! YOUR NOT A NICE GUY YOUR A TERRIBLE PERSON! BEING NICE TO ME AROUND YOUR FRIENDS IS AS LOW AS YOU CAN GET! STANDING UP FOR ME WAS AN ACT. YOU JUST LIVE TO MAKE ME MISERABLE! YOU MAKE ME WANT TO DIE AND KILL MYSELF! THATS ALL I THOUGHT ABOUT ALL DAY! HOW WOULD YOU FEEL KNOWING YOU CAUSED SOMEONE TO DIE!?!" I yell at him. I couldn't hold it in anymore. He looked torn up. "I'm sorry Harley. You just don't understand." He apologized. "Understand what!?"  "I can't tell you." He sighs.  "Um guys. The radio is on." Aaron tells us. "FUCK IT. I just want to fly." I shut the hatch. Zak strapped in and put his helmet on. I turn the aircraft on and get ready. "Zak you there?" Aaron asks. "Yeah." He sighs. "A-7 ready for take off." Aaron says. "Copy that. Go ahead a-7."  I watch as Arron took off. "A-23. Ready." Nick tells them. "Go ahead a-23."  "Let me out." Zak tells me. "No, I'm flying." I tell him.  "HR-250 ready for take off." I tell nerve. "Go head HR250." I then take off gaining altitude. I catch up with the guys. "Show us what you got girlie." Aaron smiles. I then show off my fancy flying. I do several turn downs and flips. "Girls got skill." Nick comments.  I smile as I fly through the air.  "Let's run drills." Aaron says. We run several trials and codes. We finally land on the air strip. I get out to see a crowd watching us. I exit the plane and look at Zak. He was still upset. "Zak, can I speak with you please?" I ask him kindly. I then walk behind the plane. He then followed me. "Listen, I'm sorry for what I said and calling you out in front of your friends. You pushed me over the edge. I don't know what it is. I guess I still like you. It makes me so mad your treating me like this. I want to be treated like the rest of my brothers. Why am I the one you pick on?" I apologize from my heart. He looked up at the sky then at me. "Harley, I'm sorry." He sighs. "I'm sorry Zachary. You just get me so mad."  "Harley, I think you should go home. Get away from this place. Get away from me."  "Zak, don't be like this. Be the kind Zak I know you are." I try to talk to him.  He looked me iqn the eyes contemplating. "Zak, please. I see the good in you. Just let that guy come out." I take his hand. He looks at our hands then back up to me. "Please?"  "I..I.. I can't." He pulls his hand back. I look up at him heartbroken. "Why are you doing this?"  "Because I don't like you!" He yells at me.  "That's not true." "It is. Get use to it Rawson! Not every guy will be falling at your feet."  "Zak.."  "Chief Bagans to you! Who do you think you are calling everyone by their first names?" He gets in my face and yells. I stared at the gap in his teeth. I back up trying to get away from him. "Please don't be like this." I beg him. "Stop begging me! " he pushes me. "Don't push me!" I push him back. I then felt him slap my face knocking me to the ground. I hold my face and look up at him with tears in my eyes. His hands clinched into fists. "Don't you DARE lay hands on me do you understand!?!" He yells at me. I continue to hold my face from the constant sting. He looked at me then up at the sky as if he was in pain. He comes over to me holding his hand out to help me up. I back up from him still shocked he slapped me. He hit me! "I'm sorry." He apologized to me. I stand up and look at him. "And you continue to push everyone away. You just pushed away the last person who cared." I walk past him.