Navy Love

8 Jealous

Ivan and I are doing great we got a room on the ship to ourselves. I love being with him. I get up from bed and get dressed. I look over at the clock to see it was one. Ivan was still asleep.  I go to the bathroom and come out to see Zak. "Hey Zachary." I smile at him. He didn't answer me. He looked at me then smiled. "Zachary?" I look at him concerned. "Harley." He smiles at me. He grabs the wall for support. "You okay?" I ask him. "I'm fine." He mumbles. "You sure?" "Yeah." He stumbles. "I'm so drunk." He mumbles. "Zak." I hold onto him. He pushes me to the wall and looks into my eyes. "Zachary?"  "Don't be scared." He breaths coming closer to me. He leans in and kisses me. He kissed me. I kissed back immediately. Him kissing me pure magic. His warm lips on mine making my heart skip a beat.  He pulls back and looks at me. "I love you." He tells me. "I'm married." I tell him.  "I know." He sighs then stumbles away. I go over and help him to his room. He opens his door and stumbles in. "Zak?" Nick looks at him. "I'm so drunk." Zak whines. Nick came over and helped Zak to the bottom bunk. "Just rest buddy." Nick says. Aaron laid pasted out on the middle bunk. "Will you stay with me?" Zak asks me.  "No, I have to go back to Ivan." I tell him. "Please baby?"  "No, I'll check on you tomorrow." I walk out. I go back to the room to see Ivan still asleep. I get back in bed with him. 

I wake up and get dressed. Ivan was getting dressed too. We go to breakfast and eat then I go to the hospital and start my shift. Zak came in. "Do you have anything for a head ache?" He asks me. "I was wondering when you'd come stumbling in here." I play with him and hand him the pill and water I had ready for him. "I take it you saw me last night."  He sighs.  "You could say that." I smile at him.  "What happened?" He asks me.  "Nothing you just were stumbling down the hall." I lie to him. "Oh okay." He nods his head. He takes the pill then sits on the table. "How's Ivan?" He asks me. "He's doing good." I smile at him. "That's good." He nods. 

**Zak's pov.** 

I know what happened last night. I wasn't even drunk. I just needed an excuse to kiss her. I love her so much. She's my everything. I take my pill then sit on the table watching her work. She then runs to the trash can. She begins to throw up. I hold the lose strains of hair back for her. "Do worry you'll be okay." i tell her calmly. She then sits on the floor with her head in her hands. "Zak, I'm pregnant." she looks up at me. I froze completely shocked. She's pregnant? She's going to have a baby? "Zak?" she takes my hand. "Your what?" i mumble scared. "I'm pregnant. Give been pregnant since the honeymoon." she tells me. "That was a month ago."i mumble. "I know. I researched what happens if i get pregnant. I could be sent to shore duty or stay on the ship if i want. Im choosing to stay here." she tells me.  "Okay, does anyone else know?" i ask her.  "No, your the first one to know. Dont tell anyone. I want to keep it a secret for a little longer." she tells me . "You have to tell Ivan." i rub her back.  "Im going to surprise him. I want it to be special."  "Okay, well your still in the navy Harley. Its not going to be that special."  "Yes, it would." she argues with me. "I have it all planned out."  "what are you going to do?" i ask not even caring. That should be my child. She's suppose to be with me. "For his birthday I'm going to have a shirt that says number one dad or greatest dad and give it to him. See if he figures it out."  "Cute, when is is birthday?"  "Next month. May 23." I answer.  "We are suppose dock Home then. " I tell her.  "I know. I'm going to make a big announcement then." She smiles truly excited.  "Well good luck." I sigh.  "Thanks." She reaches her hand up to me asking me to help her up.  I help her up and look into her eyes. "Have you guys been having sex in your room?" I ask her.  "No."  "So the first time you did it you got pregnant?"  "Correct."  "Why didn't you use protection?" I ask her upset.  "It was our wedding night. I didn't think I'd get pregnant after one time." She admits.  "Well you did." I tell her rudely.  She then glares at me. "Your an ass!" She hits me.  "Why is that?"   "I told you that I'm pregnant and your not even happy about it. I wanted to have a nice moment with you!"  "Sorry to disappoint you Mrs. Petrov." I tell her rudely.  "Your an ass! Why do I even try to have nice moments with you! Your never happy for me! When good things happen to me you are always pissy!"  "Then stop trying!" I tell her upset.  "I should have never even told you. I wish I never said anything to you." She looked like she was going to cry.  "Harley." I sigh.  "Mr. Bagans, just go." She sighs then turns around.  "Harley, I just don't think it was the greatest idea when you were still enlisted." I tell her. I'm just jealous, I wish it was my child.  "You think I know that?! Do you honestly think I wanted to get pregnant now? What happens if we both die!?! My child is not going to have parents!" She continued to yell.  "Harley." I sigh.  "WHY DO I EVEN KEEP TRYING TO HAVE NICE MOMENTS WITH YOU?!? YOU JUST MAKE MY LIFE HELL! IM SO TIRED OF YOU BREAKING MY HEART! THATS ALL YOU DO!"  "Harley, I've treated you like everyone else these past years."  "ONLY BECAUSE YOU WERE SCARED IVAN WAS GOING TO REPORT YOU. IF HE DIDN'T SAY ANYTHING YOU'D STILL MAKE ME CLEAN THE DAMN BATHROOMS AND STARVE ME!"  "Harley calm down." I tell her softly.  "DON'T YOU TELL ME WHAT TO DO! THIS IS MY OFFICE!"  "I'm still your chief." I tell her frankly.  "I DONT CARE WHO YOU ARE HONESTLY!"  "Harley, clam down please." I beg her. "Just leave." She points to the door. "Harley, I am happy for you. I just don't think it is time for this." I tell her honestly.  "I'm done trying to please you. All I do is try to look for your approval and to make you happy. I'm done trying! I don't want to see you ever again!" She pushes me to the door. "Fine I'll move you to shore watch you'll never see me or your family." I threaten her. She stopped in her tracks. "Don't you DARE."  "I will!" I go to storm out of the room but she pulls me back. "Would you let go of me!?!" I get pissef at her.  "Please don't move me. You need me."  "I DONT NEED YOU DARLING! I HAVE OTHER PEOPLE THAT CAN REPLACE YOU!!" I yell at her. she then hugs me. "What are you doing?" I ask her calming down.  "You need me and I need you." She tells me softly.  "Your just saying that so I won't move you." I don't hug her back.  "That's right sweetheart." She tells me. "get off of me."  I command her.   "Please don't move me Zachary." She begs me. "Get the fuck off of me!" I tell her getting upset. I want to hug her back so bad right now. "I know you like me..." she starts but I cut her off. "What makes you fucking think that?" I push her off of me. She looked at me heart broken with her blue saddened eyes. "I know you do. I can see it. Plus what you did last night." She looks at the ground.  "I was drunk! I hit on everyone when I'm drunk! Don't flatter yourself. You were the only girl around!!" I try to sound mad at her. I can't let her know my secret. I can't confess my love to a married woman. Ivan would have my head plus all the guys on the ship will look down at me for it. "Well I was wrong. I guess this will be the last you'll hear from me. I'll pack my stuff and say good bye to My husband and sister." She walks with tears in her eyes. "Harley, come back please." I beg her.  She continued to walk. I chase after her and pull her back into the hospital room. "Harley, there's no need for that." I put my hands on either side of her making her push her back to the wall. "Why were you just threatening me!?! Making my life hell like always!?!" She pushes me. I don't move starring into her blue eyes. I'm going to kiss her. No don't Zak. She was shocked as she looked at me then at how close to was to her. "Zak?" She asks in a small voice. I was making her nervous. She wanted me to kiss her. I pull back and walk out of the room. "Zak?"  "Good day Mrs. Petrov." I wave her off.  "So that's it? Your going to walk away from me and ship me off?"  "If you piss me off one more time." I tell her. I'm not going to ship her off. I can't  stand to see her leave. See her away from me. I need to know she's alright. "We are flying today at three." I tell her. 

It's three and Harley is no where in sight. I then watch her walk out to me. She held something in her hands then came over to me handing me the paper. "Your late." I tell her and look at her black hands. "What's your excuse?" I ask her upset.  "I was drawing and lost track of time. I drew that for you." She tells me as she looks at the floor embarrassed. I open the piece of paper and look at it. 

I look down at it shocked. She drew this for me? Nick and Aaron look over my shoulder at the picture. "Kissing ass?" I ask her trying to be rude.  She slouched her shoulders disappointed. "Harley that's amazing!" Nick smiles at her.  "Yeah girl that's beautiful. Where did you find that picture?" Aaron smiles.  "I had that picture on my phone of you two. I added Nick in there."  She had pictures of us on her phone? I make a disgusted face at her. "I take it you don't like it." She goes to grab the paper away. I jerk my hand back so she wouldn't take it. "Get your ass suited up. Nick you can have this trash." I give him the paper. He looked at me shocked. "Trash? This is not trash! This is amazing!" He argues with me.  "G, you okay?" Aaron asks me confused. Harley looked at me with heartbroken still. "Trash?" She mumbled.  "Let's just fly." I sigh trying not to look at her heartbroken face. Harley goes over and puts her gear on. I grab the paper form Nick and put it in my suit. "G what's going on between you two?" Aaron asks me. "She's pregnant." I whisper to them. "What!?!" Nick says shocked.  "Don't tell anyone, don't tell her I told you." I tell them.  "I can't believe it. So that's why your upset?" Aaron asks me.  "Correct." I tell them. We then get in the plane and fly. I let Harley fly and do drills. We finally land the aircraft and get out. "I'm going to tell him. No surprises. Your right. It's not special." She sulks away. Look what I did. "Harley, don't do that. Wait and tell him." I catch up to her.  "It doesn't matter anymore."  "It does to matter. Wait and tell him. This is special between you two." I try to convince her. "Yes Chief." She says trying to make me happy. "I love the picture you drew me." I tell her truthfully.  "Oh the piece of trash? Yeah you just loved it so much. I'm done trying to please you. We aren't friends any more. Like I said I'm tired of you breaking my heart." She sighs then shuts the door in my face. I go back to my room and get out the picture. I hang it on my wall and lay in bed. I really screwed up. I pushed her away again. "Zak you okay?" Nick comes over to me. "Shut the hatch and I'll tell you." I sigh.  He shuts the door and comes back over to me. "It hurts to see her live her life with another man. I wish I was him. I envy Ivan so much." I admit heartbroken. "It will be okay. She still loves you. She tried to get your approval on everything. That's why she told you first."  "Your right." I sigh.  I open my door to see Ivan standing there about to knock. "Why is my wife crying her eyes out?" He asks me.  "What do you mean?" I ask him.  "She's crying her eyes out and won't tell me what's going on. Did you have something to do with it?"  "No." I walk out of the room and go to her room. I walk in to see her crying on the bed. "Harley what's wrong?" I ask her.  She looks at me then at Ivan. "Nothing, I'm fine." She wipe so her eyes.  "Harley I'm sorry your crying. Please don't cry."  "I'm not crying." She stands up and looks at me. "Did he make you cry?" Ivan asks her upset.  "No, I barley saw him today. We didn't even speak to each other." She lies to him.  "Okay." Ivan calms down. "Feel better Harley." I walk out. I go to the mess hall and grab food then go to bed. I hope Harley and I are still close.