Infrequent Thoughts

It's an up of the date

Not gonna lie, it took me minutes to come up with that title.

Hey there guys!

It's Joe and as promised, here's the monthly update on everything that's been happening to me for the past fourish weeks.

I'm gonna just cut the BS and get straight to the point here, January really, was fine, but my mental state is just not good right now.

Feelings of a lot of sadness and loneliness are a constant thing now and it's hellish.

I'm happy sometimes, but it's only under the right circumstances, like being around a certain person who I only see once a day for an hour, every other day and they haven't been in for the past two classes making it a week since I've seen them and that's really selfish of me because I know they have their own life and stuff to do, but I place a lot of comfort in that person and god dammit, why do I get so attached to people.

I know it's not good to rely on people for your happiness, but that's extremely hard for me for some reason.

I just want someone who I can depend on and they can depend on me and we can just be together and do fun shit and make memories and all that ooey gooey shit.

Maybe it's just wishful thinking and teenage naivety, but regardless, just having someone to at least vent to would make an extreme difference for me right now and I don't have anyone, anywhere.

Also sorry about the update for Ozumil. Issues with my family have gotten in the way of thinking in general for me and is making me consider just living with my mom until I graduate, because I can't stand living at my dad's anymore unless that bitch of a stepmother leaves (which may happen eventually) or things just in general get better.

Whatever happens I guess.

Overall though, it was a fine month. Second semester started so I got some new classes and they seem good for the most part.

I don't know. I'm just not in a great place right now is all. Hopefully I can make things improve before the end of the school year.

Thank you all so much for reading and as always, I'll talk to you all again, real soon.

Ok?
Ok.

See ya!