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scout

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Saturday morning, a day before she was about to leave California to come back home from filming, Scout got a call from a nurse at the hospital back at home in Cincinatti saying that Andy was at the hospital again for the first time in two years.

The nurse ran over the entire account of what they suspected happened and what they knew for sure happened. First Andy had gotten drunk and consumed a ridiculous amount of alcohol, and when he still wasn't satisfied, he had nearly overdosed on his everyday pills. And when none of that had worked or been enough, a few days later at a home town Black Veil Brides show he had tried to jump off a tall platform and kill himself, but he only ended up having a concussion, shattered ribs and some other things that could, in time, be recovered.

It wasn't the first time he had tried.

As soon as she got off the phone with the nurse, at the end of the call hardly able to hold it all in, she broke down, sobbing and staying in bed for hours on end, all day that day and all night. She got little sleep. She had to tell her coworkers and directors that she couldn't come in to film.

They didn't understand what was going on, or if she was okay.

It wasn't only her that wasn't okay. It was her husband too.

No one got it.

No one understood the pain.

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Once Scout was motivated enough to get up and out of bed, she booked a flight right away and packed up her things to leave to go home.

Since Andy wasn't available at the time and Dennis was away at Warped Tour, she got a friend to pick her up from the airport and take her home, just to drop off her things and get in her own car and drive to the hospital.

Getting to the hospital and finding a parking spot were easy, but once she got into the building to check in, she was met with a huge waiting line at the front desk.

She internally groaned and rolled her eyes. What could make her life any harder right now?

As Scout stood in the line, waiting to check in and figure out Andy's room number, she felt a sudden tingle in her throat, the kind that someone feels when they want to cry but refuse to let it all go. She needed all the stress, the heavy weight on her shoulders to disappear. She needed to get rid of the upset she was constantly feeling in her life.

She needed assurance that everything was going to be okay.

When she thought about Andy, she thought too much. Her mind would just go off and think of too many things, including the fact that what Andy did could've killed him. She could've lost him without warning. She hated that her husband was feeling that level of horrible pain, and she hated even more that she didn't have the ability to fix it.