Reflection ; {Larcel Fanfic} Marcel the geek/Louis the punk (BoyxBoy)

~Part 12~

"I guess he is my type"

(Marcel POV)

So nothing happened. I am not kidding , nothing happened. I'm more shocked than you are. All Charlie did was laugh a lot , cooked hard boiled eggs than played a few rounds of chess with me. Which clearly he was intoxicated and had no clue what he was doing.

He told me goodnight and wobbled off to my mums room and passed out half way in the bed.

He was funny tonight but he's still the creepy adult that raped me, and I could never forgive him for that. I didn't know what was up but he was clearly more enjoyable when he was drunk which is a bigger shock to me. I need to tell someone what happened with me and him. He threatened my mums safety and I don't know what would happen if something bad was inflicted upon my mother. If anything I'm going to tell Gemma when she gets back in town..she'll know what to do. I hope.

I would tell Louis but he wouldn't understand, nor would he allow it to be quiet. He would totally take me to the cops to come clean, I can't let that happen..for my mothers sake.

Anyways, I was bored, there was supposed to be a chess meeting today over Nialls' but he had family issues so we rescheduled for Sunday. So I went to my room closing and locked my door.

I decided I wanted to know what the big whoop of porn was.

I know its weird to just randomly bring up. But I overheard some Senior boys talking about it in the lunchroom today. I really want to know what the big deal of it is. I wouldn't dare ask Niall and the other guys in our social circle if they wanted to explore the world of porn together. They would think it's weird that I'm so curious about the whole process. Plus I don't want anything we'd.. regret happening.

But I need to know stuff like this before I even think about wanting to be Louis' boyfriend. That's right, Iv'e known him for a week and want to already be his boyfriend, I'm fast. He's all experienced. I need to at least know what it feels like. Do what normal teenagers do. How to get rid of the feelings I had that day I saw Louis naked. How to.. pleasure myself.

I logged onto my computer and typed in to Google "Good Porn Sites" I'mean I have never been to one of these so I have to see the names of them.

"Pornhub.com"
"XNXX.com"
"Fuq.com"
"Redtube.com"

There were so many different ones. But I just decided to click Redtube cause I recall hearing some boys at school talking about this site. Exact words such as "I jacked off for almost an hour straight watching these lesbians finger each other."

Clearly I know what lesbians are however I was completely unaware of what said "jacking off" or "fingering" was. But I'm assuming its a type of masturbation yeah? I think so. Guess we'll find out.

I'mean hey I'm a guy whose never had "special feelings" or ever worried about them. But having a guy that I actually want to date and be my everything, has had sex before and I want to at least know what something means!

I clicked the website and waited for it to load. I got up and changed into my PJ's and came back and sat down in front of my computer at my desk.

I imminently jumped and covered my eyes at the videos that were on the cover of the website. I peaked and saw videos with titles like "Slutty Blonde Loves Cock" and "Red Head Takes Three" How explicit.

It was honestly gross. But I guess I have to get used to it. I scrolled through all the "New" and "Top Rated" videos. I went from watching lesbians to straight porn and was still not feeling anything down there. I didn't understand. Then I assumed.